For me for him...

[youngasaph]

    I have just arrived home from one of the most humbling experiences of my life.  I just got done filling in for Adrian Crutchfield at Cafe Cabrunet.  I should have slept before the gig, because it started at 9:30 and we got done around 1:30, which is the longest time I've ever played saxophone without stopping, except for Mariano's Scotch refill

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[ritewingdsemnol]

ugghhh matt! stop making some all-thought out deep analysis of what im doing! The idea of ever doing this for anyone else was never thought of, mentioned, asked of or done! Stop trying to look like you're on your next rampant idea of trying to help someone. calm down... the words were "b/c of him, im doing this for me" which in case you didn't understand, which you obviously didn't, that means BECAUSE i hurt HIM and never want to do that to HIM again, FOR ME, I, will change so as to never feel so wrong again.

you keep making it seem like I'm not in control of my own life and dazed by some unrealistic love fantasy that of which I change for, I can have. yeah, try again.

I have problems with people saying things that color what is really going on.

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[youngasaph]

your thoughts doctor? Spare me maybe? Caution this apocryphal statement perhaps... or maybe she just over-reacted to someone trying to just encourage her...why would anyone want to color what's going on, or maybe it's not just immagination, cause haven't you done enough coloring already?