Such a beautiful night. Had a great date. Sure I passed out once then almost had an anxiety attack again watching White Noise, but it was all worth it. Lying next to my baby on his bed, under a sleeping bag, cuddling warm, it's a great feeling. I miss his touch as he lies next to me, his kiss on my neck, his gentle but strong arms holding my body ( Read more... )

I feel stalked, but not by Jared, afraid by my stalker. That's okay I have those who will protect me, those who would kill for me, and those who are afraid of me. Jared wonders what's going on inside my mind, trying to pick at my past and the secrets that lie within the darkness. He's afraid of losing this relationship, but he needs to realize that ( Read more... )

What a night. Almost passing out, scaring my friends, and my boyfriend, hailing to the porcelin gods (so to speak), I don't know anymore. The pain and suffereing of my own demise is haunting me terribly. I feel like I can no longer go on with this torture. But I won't leave him, I love him too much, he is my destiny, and I will fight for him only. ( Read more... )

Jared, I refuse to leave you now. I just won't have it. I love you more than life itself and you and i are destined to be together. Our future will happen together. I promise you this. We will be together forever. I love you.

Goodbye shy guy and hello lover! He'll be the biggest romantic in massabesic by the time I'm done with him. He catches on very quickly. That's good. Man I love him. We are destined to be together. I love him so much. Jared, baby, I will love you until the day I die. And yes, I will be yours forever. I love you more than anything in the world. You ( Read more... )

I'm so excited I get to be with the one person who means more to me then anything in the world, my one true love, Jared. I get to meet his family which surprisingly I'm not nervous about. I think jared is more than me (no offense hun) which is cool. I love Jared more than anything and I never want us to be apart. God, if anything ever happened to ( Read more... )

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Okay so not everything worked out between me and Jon like we had hoped in fact I think what scared me off is that he was planning to propose to me and I promised myself that i wouldn't make the same mistake i did like when i was with ricky. I've moved on now and I'm with Troy Greenwood (he's one of the boys I met up in Oxford) Troy means alot to me ( Read more... )

Caught in the middle between two guys, how much more confusing can it get? Confused by what the hell i'm talking about ( Read more... )