What up. I'm Andrew Joseph Lee Gurney. Im 15 and I go to Learning Post. I love my life. But I have a lot of demons. Deep down I'm a really angry person. I'm a very disrespectful person. Nothing scares me cuz ive already been through hell. And im not afraid to go again. I have no regrets for the things ive done. I've done it all. Drugs, drugs, and ( Read more... )

I fall in love with the worst individuals ( Read more... )

My books have kept my occupied in these past weeks in which I'm confined to my house and the rafters. I read a book entitled "smashed" and I can relate so closely to many of the things said in it. Yesterday, like most days I waited for the hours to pass until 6:30 so I could escape to IOP. Even though it isn't quite taking my mind the way I crave ( Read more... )

P.S.

Morphineeeee

My muscle contractions have gotten increasingly shorter. The second I feel my body start to heave with hiccups, they stop. The blood pounding through my arm and fingertips subsides when I notice it happening. It reminds me of my emotions. When I'm really happy, the second I notice I'm too comfortable or having too much fun, I snap myself out of it ( Read more... )

Yesterday was uneventful. My mom wouldn't permit me to go to The Museum Of Tolerance so I sulked half the day. Then we all went on a "family outing" to see The Ballad Of Ricky Bobby, which was funny in a ridiculous sort of way. Afterwards I went to Rafters but not before my dad could get a chance to bitch at me for all of my meetings. None of the ( Read more... )

The problem with you is you don't think at all ( Read more... )

My mind works better during the nighttime. An estimation as to why could only be that I've spent the whole day contemplating things and rationalizing. Sorting out my thoughts is definitely not the easiest task. So many things have happened since I've last updated. First of all, I'm not being shipped off to residential treatment. But, Austin decided ( Read more... )

Ohhh god. I'm pretty much for sure gone to the ranch. My parents knew I was fucked up last night. I walked around with AJ and Anthony. Well, AJ basically took care of me. Held my hand and led me around. Helped me find my friends. I'm pretty pitiful. Had IOP today and Austin was there. Weird. Went to Venice and got 2 new belly button rings. I don't ( Read more... )

So Im drunk as fuck right now and trying to ype regularky and I'm doing a pretty good job I think. Laura is extreemleyu pissed at me because she was tryin g to keep an eye on me all night and she's sick of my drniking because I'm drpressed. She doesn't care If I do It fdor fun but she's really eupset at me for tongiht. I'm not depresed thougfh I ( Read more... )