i think i might have found him- the guy who likes me just the way i am. who doesn't make me feel like i need to improve in any way. he's everything a never was. he's fit and cute and nice and so respectful. he's actually too good for me- unlike a; but he seems to like me ( Read more... )

i know i've made mistakes.
i've kissed too many boys, lost too many friends and talked too much about my problems.
i've hardly listened, i've connived and broke too many things, i've hurt many people i care about. but i have cared.with all of my heart. and i know i do a lot of things wrong, and i know i don't make the best decisions sometimes, but ( Read more... )

so i can't believe summer is over ( Read more... )

i have no idea what it is going to take for me to wake up and realize the truth ( Read more... )

ashley leaves for college tomorrow ( Read more... )

fuckkk.
i have no idea what is wrong with me.
i can hang out with 30493243 people and still feel like everyone hates me.
i feel like my best friends hate me, for god's sake.
i kind of suck.

so.
i hate being the back up.
and the regret. (which, may i remind you, i always am.
and lately, well, i've just been wondering what's wrong with me.
it's starting to really make me question how horrible of a person i am.
and it's embarrassing.
let's see... a, t, e, l, n.
umm. hmm. 5 times?
this is kind of getting old.

i always get so depressed at night.
i don't really understand it... but it always happens.
like right now...
i don't know, no matter what goes on in my life, i still feel empty ( Read more... )

i don't really like this...
this feeling i've been feeling lately.
this worthless, unliked feeling.
it reminds me of middle school, or sophomore year... and i thought i was passed that.
i don't know... everyone thinks my sister can do more than me... i hate that. just because i don't always clean my room or pick stuff up doesn't mean i'm incapable ( Read more... )

he resents me ( Read more... )