i can't believe it's already may.
or that it's been four months since i last posted.
i only have 2 months till my restriction is overr.
and i only have about a week and a half left!
western, college, summer. it's all soo close.

what on earth am i going to do?
i can't drive past 10!
god.
my whole life is past 10.

blah.
i'm so tired of feeling depressed.
it would be swell if i could just not worry, but i don't know how to do that.
i really, really wish i did.
but... i don't.
therefore i'll just be happy one day and aad the next, which sucks.
i don't want to be like this forever...
i want to change.
i want to not stress over
every.
little.
thing.

it gets better ( Read more... )

how can so much go wrong in so little time??
i hurt so bad...
why does this have to happen over and over again?
i like, cannot even cry.
i want to so bad... but the tears just won't flow.

i honestly have no idea how one person can screw so much up.
mom, stepmom, friend, sister, car.
it's all ruined and it's all my fault.
i seriously hate myself.

messy boy situation (i.e. ummm what the fuck is going on ( Read more... )

so things are actually pretty good right now.
i mean, i'm kind of confused, but what's new?
i'm just hoping that this... stays the way it's going.

i really need to stop depending on people.
and trusting them.
and caring about them.
because then i can't get hurt.

guess i was wrong.