I haven't posted in 118 weeks. That's over two years.
Last post was July 14th, 2007.

I can't even begin to write down how much I've changed....or how much i've stayed the same ( Read more... )

so last night ( Read more... )

Keep loving.
Keep breathing.
Keep living.

<3

tonight was chelsea's viewing.

it killed me.

there aren't even words.

i doubt i'll sleep tonight.
and i work tomorrow.
....fantastic.
my parents won't let me go to the funeral.
because i have to fucking work.
i'm so pissed.

i couldn't go to megan's funeral because i had school.
now i can't go to chelsea's because i have to work.
i don't even

a woman in my drawing class told me tonight that she's a recovering drug addict.
she's been clean for three weeks.
it broke my heart because she told me how mad her kids are at her.

she told me because she knew that i wouldn't think any less of her as a person.

it made me feel good to know that people think of me that way,
since that IS who i am

i just started cleaning my room.
it's actually nice.

hah.

i really just want to throw out almost everything.
and just buy new things once in a while.
i don't wear most of what i have.
so i wouldn't notice, right?

...i don't know.
we'll see.

i was just the most brutally honest i've ever been.

and it felt good.

i think i'm going to start doing that more often.

i hate being sick :[

lucas carpenter is amazing.
seriously.

listen to him.
now.
www.myspace.com/lucascarpenter

go.
now.
:D

um.
but his one song made me want to go through everything i have and just throw out tons of stuff.
and just kind of start over.

oh my.
:D

he's so cute.
haha.
i'm ridiculous.
but really, listen to him.
he's fun.

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