I am fucking dead right now. i have gone to long amazing shows the last two nights and not been getting to much sleep and then wake up to go to ozzfest today. i left at 10:30 with no money and no ticket. As soon as we got out of the car bleeding through started playing and i love that band so much. watching them through a fence made me so mad i ( Read more... )

I finially got a job today. I work at the gap now. I was supposed to get my car back when I got a job but that isnt't going as well as I thought. After that I came home and had dinner at my house for once and got another lovely talk from my mother. fun times. Lauren had people over tonight, we all hung out had living room mosh and now me, lockert, ( Read more... )

I hung out with Ed all day yesterday and today. I am going to miss him a lot when he goes back on tour on tuesday and I dont know if I will be here when he gets back so god knows when I will see him again. but we had a lot of fun anyway. Last night we went with Mindy to some party in Mt Juliet and it wasnt so great so we went to steak and shake and ( Read more... )

Job hunting is shit. I applied 87667097 places and go back to talk to two of them and I am pretty sure nothing will come of it. The show was good though. After the show things went downhill. I lost my fucking liscence, went to hooters with some people(that was fun minus me having no money and being hungry as fuck and smelling food) The ride home ( Read more... )

I want things to speed up. I want things to work out for a change instead of fucking up at every chance possible. Just this once. I can only take so much more of this before it finially breaks me for the last time. That time could be coming shortly if things keep going the way they are now.

I NEED OUT

I have been in a descent mood for the last day or two, but things are starting to go back to normal and I hate it. The initial happiness of things to come is already wearing off and i know that happiness won't be back until time for it to happen. It is still there pushing me on, and it will continue to, but is fading just as fast as it came. [what ( Read more... )

My mom went completely crazy tonight. It hit like nothing she has ever said to me. She walked up and handed me a piece of paper that she typed while she was at work. It said all kinds of things about how she doesn't even know me anymore and that there is something wrong with me. I have a week for things to change or find a place to live. I went ( Read more... )

I got back from florida today. I didnt want to come back. I love it there and not because of the beaches or any of that bullshit. I just love being there. I had a better time than i thought i would going with Josh's mom and grandma ( Read more... )

So. I just got home from memphis.....$150 poorer ( Read more... )

I haven't been quite as pissed at everything as usual the past few days. I really don't have a reason. Things just keep getting more and more fucked up with my life. I finially had a plan and then that went to hell and has continued in that direction, but I just quit giving a fuck all of the sudden. I doubt that's for the best. I need to be ( Read more... )