Happy Birthday, Sara.

 I haven't felt like I was in a relationship in years.

I haven't had the "I love you, Darling"  or the "I'm so glad to see you" in years.

I haven't felt that overwhelming passion that drives people to do inexplicable things at terrible hours of the night in years.

What was it that made me feel like I was content with what I had when I knew what I ( Read more... )

Today was my first day of my dad's chemotherapy.  Within two weeks, we expect him to have no hair ( Read more... )

It occurs to me that I am one of those people who wants what they can't/don't have.

I'm never happy with what I have when I have it.

I need to learn to be happy in the moment I'm in and to feel fulfilled with the life I currently have.

The problem is, I don't think I'm wired that way.  I think I'll always want more.

Am I doomed?

 Dear Friends,

For many years now, I have been at your beck and call.  I have talked you through bad times, taken you out to eat, on drives, or to shows.  I have hugged you when you were sad, celebrated when you were excited, and listened when you just needed to talk.  I have been your shoulder and your rock when you wanted me to be.  ( Read more... )

life has thrown me some goddamned lemons... and i never have been good at making lemonade.
i really don't even like lemons in my water or tea.
so i mean... i guess things could most definitely be better.
i'm just living by the philosophy that i should take what i can get and don't be surprised if what i can get ends up being a fucking lemon in the ( Read more... )

a lot of stuff has gone down over this year.
one of the few good things is that i got a puppy.
here he is:

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Here I go.
I have mixed feelings..
I know it will be amazing to see adam.
I know it will.
I can't sleep.
My plane leaves in less than 3 hours and I haven't slept.
I'm very nervous..
I can't help it.
I just can't.
i'm sure i'll love some conversation 2564760029

what a fucking ass
and what a fucking turn of events
i don't know what to do.
i wonder how binding non-refundable is.

what hurts more than losing you..
is knowing you're not fighting to keep me.