Hi. Ive been reminiscing on the past, reading old livejournal entries and all that. A lot of this journal has been me searching for happiness ( Read more... )

November 3, 2016 my life forever changed. My heart was ripped out of my chest and torn in two. One piece was shoved back into my chest, and the other piece burnt up in the crematorium with Dylan. My Dylan. My soulmate. He died. He's dead. The only thing left of him is ashes... and his daughter. Yes, we had a daughter together. A daughter that will ( Read more... )

I'm taking my celexa again. Holy shit what a difference it has made. I can breathe again. I'm not angry all the time anymore. I'm not hopelessly depressed all the time anymore. I feel relief ( Read more... )

I just want to be happy.,

Yeah. So i still don't have my apartment but in 36 hours i will be signing my lease and getting my key, yay!!! Also for the past week i have been staying at cj's for the past week because last wednesday nick kicked me out. He's a prick ( Read more... )

I am currently sitting in a resident's room watching him sleep. I'm on babysitting duty, yay me. It's nice to not have to run around putting people to bed, but at the same time it's boring as shit ( Read more... )

So
Much
Shit.

Chris has a girl. He's gone to dinner with her, he went to a movie with her tonight. I am irrationally bitter about it. HAHA. I'm dumb. So dumb. Oh, I'm also tipsy right now.

alcohol, I love you.

Hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself.

Hey guys, I hate myself, you should hate me too.

FUCKING HATE ME TOO, OKAY?

Because I am a no good god damned bitch and I'm disgusting and useless and fucking a waste of space.

I.
Am.
So.
Fucking.
Stupid.

So god damned fucking stupid.
I should just go kill myself.

Anddddd now I'm annoyed as fuck. I'm sure the fact that I'm hungry is making it worse, but I'm afraid bitch Keanna might be making her grand appearance soon. :/ eh oh well.

I'm an idiot anyway. What else should I have expected?