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[yourluvbug2003]

so the past 3 days (2 nights) have been the hardest nights of my life.... my rick is gone and i dont know what to do, do i cry about it for the rest of my life? do i blame myself for not taking him back and being able to help him thru this? is it my fault?? is it my fault he couldnt let aimee in

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this will probably be reeaaallly long...so be prepared..

[lynns_thasht]

oh my god...i have so much to say to you about this

[yourluvbug2003]

thank you so much lynn i love you so much....aimee (his "girlfriend) is trying to tell me that i dont know how she feels...im like if i feel anything close to what you feel its WORSE, but i dont care who feels worse this isnt a competition...but i seriously KNOW that who we were when he was a live....getting married no matter what....god....

this is the worst thing thats ever happened to me

~love

[yourluvbug2003]

aimee...im not trying to start anything...the thing is is that...hes ALWAYS wanted to get married... to me... the thing is, if you've read his livejournal, you'd know that he missed me and what we had... idk aimee..i dont wanna go thru this again... he KNEW he loved me...he didnt know if what he felt for you was love or not, not to be a bitch but you're not the only one he had feelings for when he died.

i wanna be cool with you, we should be especially now... idk...things would be better if you stopped feeling sorry for yourself and realized that we ALL feel horrible about this...this isnt a competition of who feels worse, we all feel bad....some more than others but why fight with me about it? i loved him too, so just stop this.

it was a horrible thing and i hope WE never have to go thru this again... take care and if you need anything you can still talk to me anytime. i'll see you tmw at the funeral.

~love

[yourluvbug2003]

im just not going to comment on your having feelings for
him only, however....

all i can say is thank you for getting that for me, we both know you didnt have to, and im grateful that you did...

~sam

[yourluvbug2003]

we're not fighting about that....theres just a lot of drama and has been for a while...thanks for your concern tho.... anyways... if theres anything ELSE we can do for you...

~love