Aw, that's sad lol. But also kinda funny that I'd stab myself 50 some odd times and not die haha ( Read more... )

I fucking hate people. Everyone fucks me over and it's like some god damn fucking thrill to them. God..everythings happening to fast and I don't know how much longer I can take this bullshit. I hate everyone. So..some bullshit happened to me alst night, and if you want to know it go read it in Lisa's journal. Then Stephanie told Amber and Amber ( Read more... )

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I'm watching But I'm a Cheerleader, that movie makes me so happy. It makes me want someone :[ I wish that I could have someone to just hold and kiss and stuff like that and act like their my gf but not have that responsibility and have them know that and be fine with it. Won't happen. But that'd be nice.

Hmm..I'm leaving this layout till I get a new one ( Read more... )

Blah. I've been so confused lately about everything, especially how I feel because it goes from one extreme to the other and I hate it and it's pissing me off. I've been in such a pissy mood lately and bitching at everyone, I have no patience. And now that I'm trying to quit smoking cigarettes, I'm going to be even more of a bitch ( Read more... )

Idk what's wrong with me recently but I hate everything about me. The way I look most of all..everything..my hair, my eyes, my fucking acne becoming face, how much skinnier I wish I was and how I dress. Now I'm starting to hate my car...I'm going to be getting shit loads of money soon and I'm going to start changing my life dramatically. I'm so ( Read more... )

I want to sleep, but I can't. I want to cry, but it won't come out. I want to be with her but she loves someone else. I want to disappear, but I'm too scared. I keep praying for an accident where it's not my fault, but that hasn't God hates me.

Why can't I EVER get anything I want?

It's been a month since we broke up and everything has gotten so much more worse than it was in the beginning. Ever since that day I heard her talk to Kyle on the phone it's been a downfall since then. She says she understands how I feel but Idk..she might have before but Idk if she still does. If she did..how could she even think twice about doing ( Read more... )

I havn't gone to work in two days, and I say it's because I'm sick because I really am but the real reason is..I feel so dead inside. I don't feel like doing anything anymore, I could care less if I get money or a job or a new car or new friends or anything. I don't give a shit. Idk..I'm going to keep on going and stuff after today because I know I ( Read more... )