There were two little boys at the pool today, 8 years old, being babysat by a family friend, twins it turns out. They wre amazed at how quickly I could swim, across the pool in one breath. We ended up playing around for about an hour and in that time I learned there mother just died, she was 64. I bit my tongue before I let spill that they wouldnt ( Read more... )

I haven't used this thing in years. literally, years, probably since I found out about the death of a very close friend via livejournal. This is like some time capsule dating back to middle school and upon opening I'm blasted in the face by dust, mental detritus that somehow allowed me bottom out and find handholds where I had thought there was ( Read more... )

god fucking damnit. i'm leaving for new york at the very beginning of SAYMA... meaning i'm going to miss graduation and all but a few hours of SAYMA, this makes me really sad....first retreat i was looking forward to in awhile.... need to talk to some seniors.

Wow... I do have a livejournal dont I. crazy. Things have been alright, chaotic and uneventful at the same time. I'm starting to get spring fever though, which is a very good thing, at least its a refreshing change from hibernating... Been at my house more than usual, it makes me realize why I try not to spend there. Etcetera and so on ( Read more... )

Looking back on the past while there's really not a whole lot I can say... The words seem to get caught in the back of my throat and decide they'd like to remain unspoken. I'm alright I suppose, but uninspired and shades of grey are pressing at any optimism. My head hurts...

I'm still alive, more or less in one piece. That is all.

I am so fucking grounded, my mom took the door of its hinges, I feel bad for the cops and their dated script. I pretend I'm on a vacation in a mausoleum with two obnoxious ghosts, all you can do in a mausoleum with no door is sleep. Stef's I-pod never leaves my ears, it makes it a lot easier to ignore them and say nothing. By the way I no longer ( Read more... )

yesterday colleen got to wear her giant pot leaf costume for school, it was beautiful.

Sorry I never update this thing, this is sort of my obligatory superficial livejournal for keeping in touch and letting you all know about my less illegal activities and vaguer thoughts. That explains why I hardly ever write in here ( Read more... )

The past two days have been fucking fabulous. I/we are overdue for some good luck coming our way, and so it has. Things are quite good, although occaisonally awkward. I'm learning the value of discretion, it helps a great deal to keep your reputation vaguely decent. Chainsmoking is bad though, which is what I've been doing ( Read more... )