Why am I so afraid of success?
Get a new job, do well at it.
And now all I want to do is run under the covers
and never go back.
I need to stop thissssss.

Time for another deep moment. I just started thinking about how life would be if we didn't know the people we did. I dont want to elaberate on that because its thoughts like those that only I can figure out. 2007 is going to be the year. What do I mean by that exactly? I have not a clue, but things need to change. And thats how I'm gonna leave it.

I feel like complete shit right now. Things are changing. Hell, they have been since the end of August. Bariatti said it best, "High school feels like a party youre not invited too." Everyone always looks down on hanging out with 'high school' kids when youre in college, fuck it. I dont give a shit how old you are, friends are friends. And I miss a ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, college starts for me. Everyone else started today, but I dont have tuesday classes so yeah. I dont wanna go =[. Lobster came down to the Press today and we sat there complaining about not wanting to start college. I would kill to be going back to high school right now, how sad is that? Things are getting better and better at LI press, I' ( Read more... )

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I hate never having money. I barely work anymore. I'm getting a different job. I'm stressed..as usual. In a week everyone starts leaving = me getting really depressed. I dont want everyone to leave. I feel like summer went too fast and I'm not ready for it to end. Of all the times for this to happen, I really want to go onto oldnavy.com and stare ( Read more... )

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Things are definetly changing since I last updated ( Read more... )

Today was amazing. I woke up at 6:45am to the complete silent and beautiful weather. Matty picked me up at 745 then it was off to Cory's. Got breakfast with matty cory laina and cristina and then we left for montauk. So much traffic so we got there at like 1045-11. Met up with Joesphy and Matt W. Went on the beach for a few hours. Went in the water ( Read more... )

all I have to say in light of recent events is...

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON.
thank you for your time.