I am not well, I am feeling ill. I am intoxicated. I am parnoid. I am tired. I am not in love.

Raindrops on Roses

Safe to say I'm a fucking mess, but seems like everyone is these days. I wish my arms were 10 feet tall so I can make everyone feel like something special. I don't understand why awesome people have to have soo much shit happen to them, I mean over and over again, and trust me it can get really bad real fast. I think the toughest thing for me to ( Read more... )

A friend read me one of the best lines ever, of course it's from Herzog.. That ass, I just love the way he simplistically sees human, nature and desire. I wish it were my lines. Here goes ( Read more... )

How fucking dare he, I mean fuckkkkkkkkkkk. How can I stop being tuff with all the assholes I have to deal with. Nobody puts baby in a corner. YOU FUCK

I've been house sitting/ cat watching the last couple days, which means nights stayed laid out in a small city apartment. Too much noise outside and not enough talking on the inside. Darn cat never even acknowledges me, it's as though our only purpose around eachother is to ignore one another. I can't even imagine how I lived in the city for soo ( Read more... )

I'm soo upset, pissed, sad, gloomy, restless, fatigued and frustrated right now. Not to mention I haven't slept more then a couple hours each night for two weeks, insomnia is taking it's toll, running its course... I cried on the train yesterday while on my way to Queens, I cried while watching a PBS special on "men and how they deal with getting ( Read more... )

It's been a whole weeks worth of fun for me, the best birthday week ever. Eventhough I didn't get any happy bithday's on LJ (I'm willing to look past it), I was loved by all my friends who hung out with me. I AM NOT COMPLAINING ( Read more... )

My B-Day is coming up, 4th of July bash!

Rita, Lesa and I plan on having a dance party on July 9th. I will update once I know for sure. Not that excited about my B-day (suprising), I'm kina stressed out about my living situation.... I feel a move coming on.

I am just as tragic today as I was yesterday....... Just a bit more clarity. I pinch myself from time to time, just to make sure I'm still feeling. I want to ask everyone for the answers, but no one has any. Perhaps, it's me.. not you. An absurd Oddity always forces me into repulsion. Everyone hates the thing that they fear in themselves the most.