I am sad and sick and I feel like I'm losing it. My infertility is starting to very quickly drive me insane, as well as the chronic pain. Be it stomach aches or headaches, or both. I find myself almost daily wishing I were dead, then realizing what I'm saying and taking it all back. But that is the way I feel most days ( Read more... )

Things are unlike they have ever been before. I am the happiest I can ever remember being. For once in my life I have someone that I know cares about me, and I am not trying to push them away. I feel like things are only going to get better from this point on. I feel so lucky to be with someone who is so thoughtful and considerate of me. It is ( Read more... )

I'm in North Carolina. Today was a great day, and it isn't over yet. Greg and I woke up around 10:30, played some video games, then went swimming and hot tubbing together, just us. It was really relaxing and sitting in the hot tub looking out at the sky and the trees I felt like I was in a dream and would wake up any minute. We went to hooters for ( Read more... )

I really hate it when I have a long very busy day at work, then I come home and relax for a few hours, and when I get ready for bed and I think about all I've done that day, and I remember one crucial thing I forgot to do.

Right now my new kitten is sleeping on my tummy. And I hear my man walking down the stairs.

This morning Greg got up really early for work and I heard him leave without even saying/kissing me goodbye. I ran after him and he seemed sad, then when I came back downstairs I went in the bathroom and looked in the mirror and my hair was a bird's nest, and I laughed. This has never happened before. I think deep down if I don't say goodbye to ( Read more... )

On Jul 16, 2008, at 10:20 PM, lauren furton wrote ( Read more... )

last words.

I want to be able to say I miss you, or I love you, and have it not be awkward for us.

Things are better.

I can't remember the last time I felt so alone.