ao atmosphere was more amazing than i ever could have hoped for. im glad i got to go with two amazing people. me and justin did alright last night. no stupid conversations. just love and friendship and good time spent together. it didnt hurt at all on the drive home. but maybe thats because i fell in love with slug last night. so charismatic ( Read more... )

i miss you and me.

love is real
it is not
just in poetry and stories
it is true
and it will follow you
everywhere you go

darling when you smile it is like a song

and i hear it every day.

is so superficial. im tired of not knowing what i want. and covering in constant partying. my life will not become more complete with everytime i go to the same places to drink with the same people. no one will miss me when im gone from there. why cant i leave? why cant i walk away? i dont need to be in this place anymore yet im not ready ( Read more... )

things seem to be going ok so far. im still skeptical though. i dont know that he cares a whole lot...

note to self: eat shit. you are a moron.

ill do anything for him even though he doesnt care about me. fuck fuck fuck him. happy birthday justin. thanks for treating me like shit.

losing this hurts.

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i dont want to be here anymore. i hate this place. this life. these people who keep hurting eachother to save face. i hate that i dont want to see his face again. but i dont. i dont want to see him around. i dont want to talk to him. i dont want to spend all day crying.

LJ Interests meme results

1. breakfast:
   sometimes it feels so good to wake up and have breakfast with someone you care about before having to go to work or school or do something responsible. even if its just a bagel. it starts the day off right.
2. coffee and cigarettes:
   i consume way too much of both of these things.
3. eating:
   i love eating. for some ( Read more... )