ive been thinking about eating all day and now that i finally have the chance i cant even finish it. i had to force the majority down my throat. i come home and sit in front of my computer and eat. i check up on my fake social life. nothing. nada. the ones that matter arent gonna be talking to me on the computer most the time anyway and i ( Read more... )

had another dream about a place ive never been. dreamt i was in this place thats primarly level. theres a main dirt path running the length of it witha river/creek thing running next to it. old railroad tracks with wooden ties crisscross the path. secondary paths run off of the main path. if you follow a railroad track or one of the paths ( Read more... )

fuck this shit. i plan on falling back into the daily grind for a bit to regroup. stay up late get closer and closer to rsi watch conan go to sleep wake up ride my bike smoke pot hang out with old friends and maybe figure out what the hell im doing with myself. im either leaving on a schoolbus, getting a job, or leaving for new york. probably ( Read more... )

Sun in Pisces, Moon in Capricorn ( Read more... )

the only ones online to talk to right now are the robots. havent been around much in terms of technology in weeks and now that i am im sitting inbetween 3 comps with 2 of em on. so much radiation i can taste it. in the midst of a couple projects to say the least. we dumpstered a bunch of working marine batteries so im workin on the jukebox/ ( Read more... )

im livin on this church bus now with some friends and were makin it run on veggie oil but its fuckin up but does in fact work we just have minor problems that can be fixed easily than were leavin. dont know where were goin yet. prbly north. got some grease in it know thats good grease we got from this restaurant in palm harbor. ceptthe fuel tank ( Read more... )

god damnit im so tired of everyone fucking me. god fucking damnit. my boss has withheld my pay 2 weeks in a row now. i call him every morning at 7 oclock. sometimes he answers. sometimes he doesnt. before if he didnt pick up id go to where i meet him and wait for about an hour anyway. now i dont bother with that shit i just call and if he ( Read more... )

im going to find out tommorow if i can get my job with pinnacle back. since my boss is more undependable than i am. if so im going to quit go to new paltz for a bit come back get that job get an apartment with john. my mouth taste like matches. im in a bad fucking mood because a friend of mine fucking stole from me today. what the fuck is that ( Read more... )

http://stevemccurry.com/gallery.htmlthese reflect how i was wishing the pictures i just developed would have come out. i kept visualizing the place after i left and waiting to have the pictures. seems the best pictures im gonna have are just vivid imagery. those pictures are gorgeous. beautiful places look like that to me. that vivid. ( Read more... )

this is the first time in awhile ive faced my meaningful thoughts in along while. have to adjust the brightness of the screen its hurting my eyes. i want to shatter glasses. im fed up with this shit. st pete aint what it used to be. i aint what i used to be. my situations aint what they used to be. i always accept change. however some of ( Read more... )