woke up threw a chair across my room picked it up threw it again kicked thru the sheetrock and went back to sleep. woke up until i got the killer headache and heat surging thru my fucking veins but mainly my skull than went back to sleep. tried making plans and they either werent going to work out or i had no interest in them after the fact when ( Read more... )

more before this im not writing here. im leaving. than i see a girl. shes next to the negative from before but seperate. i think its me being tempted or something but i go towards her anyway. i put my arms around her and FEEL her skin. i feel the curvuture of her body. i kiss her and slide my hand around her lower back and down her side ( Read more... )

its too hot outside to smoke a fucking cigarette. everything in my fridge smells like its fucking rotting. im probably going to fail school which means im probably getting taken to fucking court in north carolina again. fuck. i want to leave with the rest of em. they want me to. i cant. i gotta stay and make this shithole of a city as ( Read more... )

dream- im in some place like arizona or some such and the person im with is some dirtbiker fuck. were goin around and hes pointing out different places off the side of the ride and talking about them and saying if theres anything you want to put somewhere just pick an empty plot of land and its yours. were goin around and than we go in this house ( Read more... )

if home is wherever you lay your head than why the fuck havent i found it? if it would follow me around for once instead of being strewn throughout this god damn city. ive got no sense of home because i have noone to share it with. or when i have someone to share it with it isnt my home. fuck fuck fuck. live and let it be my man. argh. why? ( Read more... )

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engravings paintings and sketches that have to do with absinthe from the 1800s are all fucking amazing. jesus. il load some up here in a bit. or link to them. yes yes. built a tattoo gun out of an electric toothbrush. its slick. battery powered. i fucking hate television. in the last 2 weeks ive been finding myself turnin to it for ( Read more... )

ok my fucking post disappeared. it was about hatred for condos, having a job, etc etc. heres a summary of the rest of what i said other than the condo bit ( Read more... )

woke up to someone knocking on my door. than i hear my grandmas voice? why is my crazy ass grandma here? she asks if she can come in. i tell her yes. she starts telling me my mother got sent back to the hospital and that she doesnt think shes going to make it. i think my grandma is just being crazy and over reacting like she tends to. i hope

i just remembered a fictitous place. i know that makes no sense. however. i remember directions to get up to it. a path thru woods and whatnot. and i know it doesnt exist. its some part of my fucking brain. its a fictitious place in nc. i think its from a dream i had along time ago. for some reason i think i thought of it awhile back. not ( Read more... )