dont know. what the fuck? at a loss. mother fuckers meddling in my business. being honest to someone than he decides to "fix shit" for me. mother fucker. Things felt arent things to be taken and repeated. exaggerations. and than the guts to tell me he was in the same boat and turn around 2 days later and change his mind because he never knew ( Read more... )

i came across a whole lot of rudimentary peni i dont remember putting on my comp but apparently so. fuckin sweet.

ima fucking dick. alot of times il ask my mother for bus fare and shel give me whatl be the smallest bill, like a five or so so i can catch the bus back and tell me to break it and bring back the change. i usually end up spending it on beer or pot or a show or something and never bring shit back. usually shes passive, doesnt say much and ignores ( Read more... )

Immortal technique gives me crazy chills. every other line. fucking crazy. saw some friends of mine if missed for awhile today. Just heard a line in this song that id never noticed was used in a piece of writing by a friend of mine. hmm. wonder if it was influenced by immortal technique. need to do my schoolwork now. will write later. just ( Read more... )

Dear anyone that's reading this,

It would be greatly appreciated if you kept this page of rants on the dl. ok thanks.

love,

Spaz

picnics today. it will be interesting to see how this turns out.

The new plan is to get a chair and move my computer screen to the top of the table instead of below it as well as the mouse & keyboard so as to encourage me to nerd out less. too many responsibilities that i get fed up & just sit & write in this damned box all day. I have that lochjournal program so i dont have the pain in the ass of reloading ( Read more... )

halfway thru that 2 month buffer zone post 4th of july when you still hear what was once the pride and joy of the chinese but now is a constant morose reminder everytime you catch that yellow oval sticker out of the corner of your eye. the product of youthful innocence on the kids down the blocks part: disregarding any previous protests to indulge ( Read more... )

had a dream that me, sierra, and indika were locking down. we were originally with a large group but had gone to do a seperate action of more importance as the rest of them were loosly organized. i was scared shitless. i didnt want to go to jdc as i thought of it as worse than prison, knowing that anyone arrested in an action like that gets ( Read more... )

desperation for human contact. just brief flings of interaction. brief flings of life. the rest of the time is idly sitting by and attempting to better prepare myself for something thats no longer a prominent part of me anyway. spent some time with amazing people thou. words spoken greatly appreciated. homebrew drank greatly appreciated. bags ( Read more... )

i probably shouldnt post so many things public. doesnt really matter as hardly anyone knows this exists and thel find half of this out when i get drunk and depressed or am talkin to em at 4 in the morning and theyre just stayin up smokin cigarettes with me. or i call em up in the middle of the night looking for some human fuckin contact.