dont know why she walked over here just to close the door on me without saying anything to leave me in the pitch black room with no windows. its almost as if she doesnt want me to stay up ( Read more... )

tap tap tap tap ( Read more... )

music is amazing. listenin to tom waits. while reading defiance ohio lyrics. friend of mind showed me this quiz where you answer questions about yerself using lyrics from a song. didnt do the quiz but it still made me think. defiance ohio lyrics do a good job at such. quite alot of similarities. when i fist heard about them it was because a ( Read more... )

my fucking heads going to fucking explode ( Read more... )

fed up with this city. with these fuckin people. not goin on tour i decided. wouldnt be able to tolerate it. drama ( Read more... )

i had an odd dream last night. the only part i remember was walking into a room witha couple peoiple and seeing nina with who i guess was supposed to be brian. after that i hugged her and started crying on her shoulder about logan.

-just unmasked this from private to public. part of spring cleaning.

logans body is shutting down. his lungs collapsed. hes on a machine. i cant fuckin believe this. i cant believe im just fuckin sitting at home while hes fuckin dieing. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. bruce gave a long monologue today about logan. he was talking about what logan did. ive been thinking. alot. about alot. ive been straying alot from ( Read more... )

so im gonna go back to the hospital today. ive gotta do this fuckin schoolwork first for some reason thou. anyway a little later i might go visit some people. ive got some cash so im gettin trashed. come join for some beer on me.

woke up feelin like shit. passed up a trip to ocala for this day. i found out a friend got in a car accident. hes having minimal brain activity. might die. its my birthday.

i fuckin hate this feeling. so discontent. dont know why. too unhappy. i think its loneliness. just alone. thats why i fuckin hate this neighborhood. this house. lack of friends. jesus fuckin christ. i need to move out. soon. this is really gettin to me.