As usual I always forget about this thing and them come back to it sometime later. I just layed here and read all my old entries and I know no one reads this but I've been the HUGE change in my life since even the last couple entries. I was reading one that was talking about Mallory and I being sophomores and now we're seniors and everything is all ( Read more... )

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Finally, I always forget I have this but once in awhile it's something good to vent in...which is why I keep this. :) Since my last entry I had my 16th birthday which was pretty lame. I did a while bunch of nothing. I got a job which is going good. I just got home actually haha. I started going to church and youth group ( Read more... )

It brings out the worst in me
When you're not around
I miss the sound of your voice
The silence seems so loud
'Cause there's no one else
Since I found you
I know it's been so hard
You should know
<3

Okay so that was pretty sweet I got a long to writing this long ass entry and then some fucking pop up thing popped up and took it all away so I guess I'll get to ranting all over again. HA. Today has been rather sucky I guess just because it's a Sunday and it's a slow day and for the past week or so I've been doing things to keep me busy and to ( Read more... )

Still I continue to write in here. I'm in the middle of making cinnamon rolls for everyone, to bad there's only 8 and I'm going to eat most of them :D Um, nothing exciting had really happened since last time. Thanksgiving Jason and I got back together and then on December 6th I found out my old friend Jeremy died in July, he committed suicide. And ( Read more... )

 Holy havn't fucking written in this thing in like a month. I don't know why I continue to write in here it's not like anyone reads this or anything. Um things have been fine, could be better I guess but I'm in no position to be bitching. I'm pretty sure I made honor roll this semester and I'm so gassed! :D haha um, my mom got a new car. 2007 ( Read more... )

So I havn't updated this thing in a long time. Last weekend my sister came up  with my nephew and he's still amazing as everrr! Haha Shilah, Cindy and I basically drove around the whole time and of course I had to drive them around because they had no idea where they were going. We went to the mall, back to my house ate went out for a bit more, and ( Read more... )

Well school started today, it was rather interesting haha. um jason and i aren't back together yet and i wish we were but i still have a feeling that he likes someone else or he just doesn't love me as much as he used to and he won't tell me how much he does because we're not together which is fucking gay im so sick of crying. goodnight.

even if i say it'll be alright still i..

I feel so exhausted, emotionally and physically. Like no matter how much I try it all just gets thrown back into my face. And I get called selfish, immature, annoying, etc., No matter how many chances I give nothing ever changes, and I just put all my heart into the thought of things changing and us both ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here at Courtney's, it's 2 in the morning and I'm waiting for the episode of CSI t come on. It looks awsome so I decided to stay up and watch it. But then some stupid show came on at 1:30 when the other episode ended. So I made some hot coco :) and now I just finished watching atreyu's new music video for becoming the bull and all i ( Read more... )