half of me is missing. the sun's glow has diminished, and the clouds above weep for my breaking heart. their tears fall upon the unforgiving ground, and seep through the surface. they nourish the roots of my desire, which grow long and deep. on the surface, a tender stalk appears, weak and young. as the heavenly tears fall, the stalk grows bigger ( Read more... )

I was really happy. He called me, and he wanted to hang out. i was doing homework, so i said i'd be done in thirty minutes, and i would call him back. i thought we could go see a movie, because i miss being with him- sitting next to him, holding his arm, watching the expressions on his face as the movie progresses- i miss all of him ( Read more... )

ok, i was a bit hasty with that last entry saying i almost know i'm going to AMDA for college... why, do you ask? well, i just got a call yesterday from the New York School of Film and Television, asking me to come and audition for their artistic director (who, it just so happens, was the Vice President of SAG (Screen Actors Guild, for those not ( Read more... )

i think i know where i'm going to college. AMDA (American Musical and Dramatics Academy) is talking about offering me a $15,000 scholarship per year, if I go to their New York Campus. Bring it on...

kevin and i are on a break. i DID NOT break up with him, contradictory to whatever he might have told ANY of you. we spoke of the possibility of dating other people while on this break, and he's probably said to a few of you that he thinks i've already found someone. not. fucking. true. i have never "been with somebody else" while on one of our ( Read more... )

yay for bootleg copies of the original broadway cast of WICKED!

that is all...

i still dont know what im doing...

i had always thought all of my friends had my back, and loved me for who i am... now i dont know anymore. one friend is completely embarassed by me, says that i act fake, and now, i'm petty and lame... one of my oldest friends thinks all of this about me. that hurts more than i care to state...

so, i have just been called back for the main role for a sitcom pilot ( Read more... )