things can change so fast. when you have one thing that makes you some what happy, something else comes a long that makes you happier then you ahve been in so long. this thing makes you so extactic, no one understands, but then at the same moment, on the other end of things you hear things taht shouldn't happen to the people they do happen to. life ( Read more... )

im grounded this weekend! fucking awesome. and to top it off, there is this reaccuring subject that doesn't seem to die down. im hearing this from people that have no idea who i am. it's gay, and i just wish the truth would come out, but what can ya do?

today was a fun one. first of all it was zachs birthday! the big 1-8!. i brought him breakfast, and baked him a cake, from scratch and heart. and also got him a little present im sure he'll use. then school was the same old shit. then after school is where it got interesting! i went swimming! then i got sad b/c of something/person, then laura and i ( Read more... )

at first i thought i was soo right, and i stood strong in my position, but now that i think about it and look at the other parts of this, i realize that it's more complicated theni made it out to be. i don't know what to do, say, suggest. i've never been in this persons shoes, i've barley left my home state. i really can't be one to give input ( Read more... )

um yeah, this fucking sucks. I know it's happening, i didn't want it to, but i can't stop something i guess was meant ot be. ah ( Read more... )

last night was great fun, laura and kaylene you guys are ardorble and i love you! you're so cute when you sleep kaylene! we also met my love nikki at the movies, but then we had to leave b/c laura had to be home soon, but it was still fun. yup yup. now, today is supposed to be busy for me, but for some reason i don't think what i really really ( Read more... )

today at work i took this old guys order, and then told him the total, and he hadd a shit fit about this, so i could sense trouble. then when his pizza was ready he looks at the thing for about 2 mins straight, i thought he was stuck in that position, but he wasn't. then he moved his grumpy ass to the counter, and calls me over to him and starts ( Read more... )

i am still climbing higher. there are the setbacks, but hey what can ya do. last night was crazy. i wish nikki was there, i love her.

today i took it to a higher level, and it was very enjoyable. wow. nikki i love you and i hope penelope is ok, and will make it through this. friday is still happening no matter what! i love you!
later

why is high school so chaotic? i don't mean to the extent of like riots or something like that, i mean like emmotionally. One day at school, and you go through so many different feelings. latley mine haven't been to great. i don't know what im missing, and the things that im usingto fill this void aren't working to great. O yeah, today i went w/ ( Read more... )