dear jonathan

im sorry i ruined ur trip
im sorry im not what u want 
im sorry ur everything i want
im sorry im not perfect
im sorry im a pathetic loser
im sorry i didnt tell u that sooner
im sorry i love u more then anything
most of all im sorry im me

love forever yours
emily

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this isnt the  way it was meant to be 
the first night was amazing he showed me things i never knew i could feel 
he touched me in ways that made me want to cry
hell never know how it felt for me 
the feel of his lips against mine 
my body could have paowered a large city 
i felt electrified
i wish he knew
then he told me he didnt feel right 
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when he said it was over the thing i dreaded most was him saying he wanted me back coz i didnt know if i was strong enough to make that decission and sure enough he said he wanted me back and he was sorry and he was an asshole and he loved me and missed me and blah blah blah and me being the stupid bitch i am actually beleived him and fell for it ( Read more... )

dear you,
when u told me u wanted me back i pointed out to u that it wouldnt be until i had had the baby atleast this is something is gonna take time u cant expect to me to come running back after what happened i know ur despairate to see lilly and i want u to see her but i can some back until im sure its the right thing to do and right now i dont ( Read more... )

everything is ok everything fine

I AM NOT A FUCKING WHORE SO SHUT UP

this is my baby if u want to know whether its a girl or a boy let me know

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this entry is directed at one person in particular and they know who they are...i could tell everyone else not to read it and some of u may respect that but some of u wont so im not gonna bother read it if u want but please dont comment unless u are the person this is directed at or u feel u have something helpful to over or u want to tell me ( Read more... )

y doesnt anybody lov my baby y doesnt anybody want to kiss my belly or talk to it i cant do this by myself i cant beleiv i ever thought i could do this what the fuck was i think i must have been insane  but its to late now i can feel it moveing and i love it so much but i dont think i can do this not now

my princess is finally 2 so here some pics from her birthday


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