How can you go 13 months totally neglecting intimacy with your partner, having your partner point it out to you and then continue to ignore it?  Is it really all that surprising that I stopped doing things for you?  Is it surprising that I stopped writing about you?  Is it surprising that I stay up too late?  Is it surprising that I spend most ( Read more... )

This Journal is a monument to who I was when I was young and angsty.  I turned 30 a week ago... I got engaged back in November, my life hasn't always gone in the direction I thought or hoped it would but from then to now, I wouldn't change a thing.

That it could possibly detract from the fact that I had a perfect week with my girlfriend and the best part?  I am certain she is the one, my mother once told me that you "just know".  Well her and I talked about it and well... we both know.  It's exciting but now this far off thing called real life is hurdling towards me at a million miles an hour ( Read more... )

It's so precious, don't waste it.  Time and Love.  I lost two years with the woman I love and it's my own fault but I made me a vow to the moon and stars that I would spend the rest of my life making up for it. She's all I ever think about and I hope one day soon I'll have the simple joy of holding her hand.  I've never been happier though, I smile ( Read more... )

There's a lot on my mind... 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKGHkBComjM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4xvls9LAlM

There are so many things we leave unsaid.

I love this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOLNJ5s-S4c&feature=player_embedded#!

 For far to long I have been the folly of others.  Led to believe that what I was suffering for was worth it, all the while I was unintentionally making an ass of myself.  Too often I convince myself that I am wrong and that I should dismiss instinct.  If my wants and needs no longer fit in with your own then perhaps emotionally dragging me through ( Read more... )

 I searched for hours
For the lyrics to some old song that…
That would tell you just exactly how I feel
And there ain’t no song I ever heard that…
That could be pretty enough to tell you
How much you mean and that…
That there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you.