I finally realized there was no connection between me and her, at least not yet. I was being way to impatient and forcing the issue way to much. You live and learn right? I am taking a step back from the whole love,dating thing. I still believe love is very neccessary to live a complete life, and while I am single there will be days and moments ( Read more... )

The coaching is getting a little frustrating, I put in a 12 hour day and I am not getting paid consistently yet.... lame. Good news is that my 12u team went 2-0 beating two in town rivals and thus putting us in 1st place in league. Good day today but my high school team lost by 1 in OT so that kind of sucked. Next weekend im literally going to have ( Read more... )

In the back of my mind I have to have journalist/writer because, I hate to be bragadocious, I am good at it. I am not super interested in writing, but I enjoy it. I bring this to your attention because I probably just wrote a B or an A paper in about 30 minutes, it is just a natural gift I cant help it lol.The only guy I know who does it better is ( Read more... )

The subject title is going to be the name of my first album or demo...... i know what you might be thinking..... where the fuck is the music? Well kiddies, its on its way, i am just waiting for some more funds to purchase the recording and mixing software neccessary to make my magic. I havent decided what my solo project will be named yet but I am ( Read more... )

The subject title is going to be the name of my first album or demo...... i know what you might be thinking..... where the fuck is the music? Well kiddies, its on its way, i am just waiting for some more funds to purchase the recording and mixing software neccessary to make my magic. I havent decided what my solo project will be named yet but I am ( Read more... )

I was talking to Nikki about Amanda today and I dont regret spednig a part of my life with her, I just regret that it was 8 years of my life thats all. There was a time when we were really happy and every second of those 8 years I loved her(I still loved her following her break up with me). But it was a mistake for both me and her to let our ( Read more... )

Alas..... this most blessed and cursed of weeks has come to a close. And I am better for it. But I do not want a week like that for a while. 5 lost games, 4 days at work, 3 exams, 2 days of practice and 1 mended heart in an amazing night.

You know what's awesome? Setting your alarm at 7am but it doesnt work so you wake up at 8:20 and are late for ( Read more... )

Give it a few more days and at that point I will have noting to lose and I will lay it on the line and let her see what I have previously written on this very journal that is now private and only a select few of you have read. My hopes are no longer high and I am quite aware that I have a fool's dream within my heart. But I desire never to live my ( Read more... )

Today was the worst day I have had in my life since the trials I endured with Amanda...... too many people are asking too much of me and I cannot bear the weight of letting anyone down, most of all myself. I will be amazed if I get out of this semester alive. Fortunately after this week I will have the oppurtunity to re-focus on school. I like my ( Read more... )

I am not shaving for 6 months, I have to admit the reason is farily lame, John Lennon inspired me. This is probably somewhat being a poser but no one is truly independent and unique and everyone poses at least a small percentage of us is always posing. I dont hesitiate to admit this. When I see stuff on TV or in movies or anywhere that looks cool ( Read more... )