It just began to rain outside...

[zackv]

I was sifting through some old boxes today and I found some things from Marysa. Like an idiot, I read them all the way through.

I know I've talked about her a lot to you, my friends, and I've tried to delineate just how severe the situation was/is. Now, I have some evidence to really bring it home.

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[vasudeva_dasa]

I am going trough kind of the same thing. My ex also always promised me heaven and than one day...just everything disappeared. All those promises, all those dreams, all those hopes, all that love...gone.

He also wants to stay friends now and pretend there aren't these scarrs, but I can't... For now, the wounds are not healed. And how I can trust him ever again, even as a friend, when he was the one who has caused me the most pain ever?

I hope soon you can think of her without feeling pain and that you will meet the person who truly deserves you.

[zackv]

Vasuji,

Thank you so much for sharing this with me. Can you e-mail me at zacksunderman@hotmail.com? Let's continue this that way!

[angelkeys]

My mom and I just went through everything I have ever owned (literally) and had stored in the basement...among those items were several old letters from past relationships, and I completely fell apart. Sometimes I think it's best to throw them away and forget. Maybe not the most healthy, but definitely one mean to an end.

I say this as someone who's known you for years, and even as someone who has a significant other and who hasn't really had much contact with you for a while...but all the good things you mention in her notes from you are still true. This line especially: I love your compassion, integrity, kind heart, and honesty.

You're a wonderful person, Zack, and there's no reason you shouldn't be told that over and over again by everyone you know. It's just how it is.

I don't have answers to a broken heart, but I just wanted to let you know that you shouldn't give up on love, because that will hardly be fair to the person you're meant to be with.

[angelkeys]

BTW, I should learn to read my comments before posting...notes FOR you!