I feel so hopeless right now... so there's this girl i know and we're cool. she's my friend's friend from home and we met because she's a freshman in alfred now. she's a really really cool girl and we've gotton to be good friends... but one of my friends wants her. im like best friends with him but the truth is, he's a player and he wants this girl ( Read more... )

So my mom was like Andrew, you're the only one who hasn't seen my new place. Want to see it tomorrow? And I was like well, i'll go if it's just me and you... Then she asked if I wanted to go eat dinner with her and her "friend" and I said no because I didn't want to eat with her "friend". She then basically told me that I could accept her friend or ( Read more... )

So i was leaving work tonight at 3am after breaking up yet another fight... first of all, i'm not even bartending much anymore and secondly, i'm finding myself the one who has to chase down cars and break up fights... I swear, I'm gonna get hurt one day and I know it! So I was leaving and I get a message on my phone... It's my mom and she's like I' ( Read more... )

Do you know how many times I've tried to erase my livejournal??? Yeah, quite often... Anyways, I don't think any ex gf has ever tried to avoid me as much as Rebecca. What's the deal? I IM her like once every 2 months, and I say hi, and she doesn't respond. However, I eventually had my friend talk to her. Just to see how she was and now, I feel like ( Read more... )

Well now, don't I feel like a jackass... So I NEVER knew Rebecca read my Xanga and it turns out that she reads it quite often... *sigh* Do you know the feeling whenever you talk behind someones back and then you realize they're right behind you? yeah... She definately read the part where I said Rebecca was all a bet... ouch... lol. OHHHHH BOY!

Okay so I found a picture of Rebecca finally cuz in my anger moment, I erased it all! But, seeing this really makes me go, stay STRONG Andrew! My goal for the rest of my time here is to NOT hook up with get with any girl in Alfred University simply because I know I'll regret it... I'm all about the whole NYC or outside NYC girls... Okay, truth is, ( Read more... )

Today is the day I will never forget... I will never forget any of it ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about Rebecca once again... I went outside, had a cigarette because I was pretty pissed off... I began to think about her and how she could've just let me go... BUT she CRIED! she fucking broke down and told me how much she liked me and that i shouldn't let her go... fuck, she told me all of this after she completely ignored me ( Read more... )

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I really do miss her now... I'm just wanting to be with her...
Sitting outside... Warm with a slight breeze...
Cloudless sky and just holding her...
I miss that... FUCK!