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My mood hasn't improved much today but the winds did shift. Last night I thought about my dream and the occasional catastrophic impact I've had on others. Tonight a different dream and a different perspective. I am manic. There's a feeling of shrapnel to burst forth upon others ( Read more... )

This was supposed to be happy, clear. A boost to the upper-midrange of the mind (so to speak). The plan was an update on some triumph over obstacle (this will come in due time). Instead I have before me a Joe Diffie night ('A Night To Remember'). I didn't choose it now- I rarely do ( Read more... )

Something is wearing me down. Something is sending me out of phase again. It's making me socially awkward around the people that count. I'm having a terrible eye contact problem with those I respect now. When did that happen? I still feel in control around youth, vanity, anyone lacking substance, but the ones I need most to connect with terrify me ( Read more... )

'Who'll give you time to cry ( Read more... )

I'm thinking about the Sahara. A man. A plan. Karl. The hills on fire. A head-on collision on Christmas Eve. Ray Bradbury. All the attraction in the world funneled into a moment. But not this one. Cat calls. Hunger. The slavic world. Forgotten things ( Read more... )

I find myself on the fast track to distraction. One conversation seems to have changed everything. I really relate to this person. He's gifted, shy, traumatized somehow. I need this man's friendship ( Read more... )

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I grabbed a full exam at the doctor's office. Got sent out to the radiology place for ultrasound. I'm not going to explode. Apparently I had an ovarian cyst on each ovary. One of them ruptured, causing awful pain for the last 2 weeks. The other was a surprise to myself and the doctor as I'm feeling no symptoms from that side. He believes the ( Read more... )

School is still moving quickly ( Read more... )