Thoughts on my Na(ur)ture

[zaltys]

It never ceases to amaze me, the kind of things I turn to when having trouble sleeping. Tonight I've been thinking about past encounters. I started wondering where it all started. I mean really started. I know that many many events have shaped the way I am today. The interesting thing though, is that I have early memories of dominance and

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[deviant_1]

Force is always fun too. :)

[zaltys]

Don't I know it ;).

-T

[deviant_1]

Too bad you aren't out here anymore, we might have had some fun with a kidnaping/forced slavery scene. :)

[zaltys]

While I have the desire to experiment in that arena (and have to some extent), anything involving that level of potential physical or psychological harm requires extensive trust and communication. Therefore, I don't enter into that realm lightly. I've always pushed my boundaries within a relationship of some type, with people I trust to read me properly.

I would have to know you on a much deeper level for anything close to that to happen. Not to mention, the timing would have to be right (ie. while I'm uninvolved, seeking someone new).

-T

[t_maatta]

Not surprising that a person who engages in sports and activities that test one's endurance would find that this characteristic extends into the other aspects of their personality.

Be careful with labels, Timmy. You know better.

[zaltys]

I don't have the tendency to label myself anymore. That's kind of what I'm saying up there. Basically, because I identify partly with all of those things, it negates the labelling as any particular one. Pretty much the only type of label that I can self-apply is 'kinky', 'experimental', or 'open-minded'- and I only apply them for the benefit of someone who doesn't know that side of me.

-T

[dalisair]

makes sense.

[zaltys]

Most insightful ;). And have you, at one time or another, also struggled with understanding that 'darker' side of the self?

-T

[necrochaos]

You doing ok? I think it is best sometimes to not think about the past. At the time that decisins were made, they were the best you could make at the time. Hindsight will show us plenty of things, but at the time, we don't have that information.

Labels are from other people. We shouldn't label ourselves. When we label, we put a wall on our mind.

I don't know if I'm going anywhere with this. Don't think I'm helping much. You rock though and don't worry about things so much. They always work themselves out.

[zaltys]

I'm fine. I don't mind thinking about the past. At the moment, it's more useful and interesting than thinking about the present :P. When I'm up late late at night my mind always wanders in that direction- and that's fine, it doesn't bother me. The only thing I lament is the lack of people close at hand to talk to while I'm musing.

-T

[necrochaos]

I thought about you yesterady. I was at Gen-Con, one of the largest gaming conventions on the world. There were a lot of chainmail items. There were lots of girls modeling chinmail tops and bikinis. I had to look around and see if maybe if was your booth.

If you ever think about making some more chainmail bags, I would love to buy on from you. Hope things are going well.