A soulmate is love at first sight, tho for me, I only saw the back of him from across the call center. His hair and his tripp pants and they way he walked, much leo, like a cat, he moved in a way that was inticing but not intentional. I knew immediately before I had the chance to see his face, I knew his aura. It was the only thing that ever felt ( Read more... )

To start out, I just want to say that I love you more than anything in the world and I don’t want to break up with you. I feel like I can’t talk to you and you have completely shut me out so what is the point? I’m writing this in my live journal and I’m not sure if I will send it to you. There are so many things I want to talk to you about and so ( Read more... )

I'm so incredibly bored. During the day I am just trying to find 5 minutes to myself because Cute, Cute Baby only wants mom, sleeps, and foods. Mainly just mom though. He's definitely the hardest baby I've had, but it's different this time. I feel like during my first pregnancy I didn't feel anything towards my baby. After she was born I didn't get ( Read more... )

Omg but he's so cute. I look at him and my darkened heart fills with joy. His little face, his perfect hair, those tiny little fingers and toes. I could die. I can't imagine a more perfect representation of our love. Thank you, Tony. BUT ALSO FUCK YOU FOR ABANDONING ME YOU PIECE OF SHIT. Ugh. Grief is a hell of a drug.
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I had to kick Patrick out. He was faking an illness so that he wouldn’t have to work or clean up after himself. I’m going to have a newborn baby in 90 days. I can’t deal with another man-child around ( Read more... )

I'm 17 weeks pregnant today. I have no idea how I haven't miscarried. I haven't done anything right. I was so straightedge the first two pregnancies. The beginning of this one, before I knew I was pregnant, was weeks of killing a bottle of whiskey a night and chain smoking. I wasn’t eating or sleeping either. I found out at 6 weeks. I quit smoking ( Read more... )

Tony killed himself on 02/14/2019. He told me he was going to, I tried to call 911, I tried to get there in time, I didn't try hard enough I guess, because he's gone ( Read more... )

Hey you, old friend. How have you been? Oh, getting updated to fuck. Not me, I'm just becoming obsolete. To pretty much everyone but this one guy. Still goes to show that no one likes me unless it's for the cooch.

I HATE ALL THINGS. ALL OF THOSE THINGS, YEAH, I HATE THEM.

Life is stupid. I hate it. Stupid stupid stupid