hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

Hey There Delilah still makes me cry in the very best way.

I am a completely different person and yet, this song.

These feelings.

That moment.

That's all.

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

I feel like the last couple of days of Mercury retrograde is always pretty rough, and that's only compounded by it being the second fucking week of December, which is a special kind of no-light hell in and of itself.

That said, things are going pretty damn well for the second week of December during a Mercury ( Read more... )

hello world, its me, Zarozynia...

Mercury retrograde makes for a much quieter firebull in some ways, but there is a lot going on underneath the surface.   I'm processing the difficult emotions that the holidays always bring to the surface.   I'm taking stock of my year and although everything certainly wasn't hugs and puppies, I'm generally pretty ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

Oh, to have all of the words to explain my emotions.  The first couple of days after the election, I was in a state of overwhelm.  The solution to overwhelm is nothing; and I did do a whole lot of nothing which was the right anecdote.  I'm proud of treating myself as well as I could, even without having the right ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

It all comes back around for reprocessing.   I know that I shouldn't be surprised.   My mother-in-law sent me a message about what foods I could safely eat on Thanksgiving, and I was pretty blasé about the whole thing.  I know the big ones, but she asked me for more clarification.

And that's when I started second- ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

This has been a week.   I wonder if there will be a time sometime far in the future when I look back on this and don't know what I mean (for reference: the Giant Peach won), but right now, the feelings of it all are completely inescapable.  In the same way that the future rolls over you in waves, I have no idea if ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

Part of the problem I'm having is that I did something very scary (for me and my weirdo brain) yesterday and then, promptly forgot about it.

(In fairness, I went and saw and off-Broadway production of Les Miserables so I was very occupied and had many lights and sounds as a distraction)

I feel like I should be ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

The worst of my own half-empty brain has always been the belief that "this will never happen again."   It has never proven true, but then again, nobody ever knows that the last time IS the last time until it's over.

I'm in a weird space in my soul and with my heart.

The pandemic disrupted something important, and ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

I feel cosmically out of order at the moment, but I mean that in a Merlin way more than I do a bad sign on a machine sort of way - in case you were wondering!

Time hop!

I was inspired to write and do major edits on certain things this week and I was obligated - by nature and my desire to keep my plants outside as ( Read more... )

hello world, it's me, Zarozynia...

Really thinking and noticing some things (some trends if you will) but I'm slowly learning to keep them to myself.   That is not my nature state of being - perhaps it is a reaction to so many people in  my life hiding so many things, but that never sits particularly well with me.   Plus, as the person that notices ( Read more... )