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blah blah blah.

it is done, so that is something.

working this week was like pulling teeth.  normally, I wouldn't have forced it this much, but this felt sort of time-sensitive.

there were other things I would have rather been doing.  like playing with flowers.  editing photos.  digging through my potting supplies ( Read more... )

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Apparently, I  needed to go on a pretty deep side quest this afternoon to assess, clean, and organize a large portion of my apartment.   I'm not nearly done - I tore apart and reassembled the kitchen this morning and then moved on to my office.   That's the part that's not nearly done - I currently have a pile of ( Read more... )

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There are now a couple of fun things to look forward to: games with friends, flowers and cheese, a Victorian-themed birthday party, and maybe a museum trip if we can squeeze it in.

All kinds of nice ways to get weird about things and be inspirational.

I am really starting to sink into the slowness of January.   ( Read more... )

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I hate that I'm back to feeling like all of the water signs in my life have done me dirty.   I can understand that this isn't true, but the bad protective part of my brain is still screaming: Don't you dare.  Never again.

Get away from me, you vile kryptonite.

I'll admit that I enjoyed my sojourn back into ( Read more... )

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Well, this has been a strange couple of days since the new year began, but I'm not mad about it - not even one bit.   We've had all sorts of little bits of fun - trying new recipes, watching movies, playing a new game and a favorite old game.   Not bad times with my absolute favorite person.   And now I've got a ( Read more... )

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Perspective is such a wild reality.  Especially since you generally have no idea at any given time of how far your range really is.

You only know what you know.

The entire world is a snow globe, marking the end of this warm spurt.  There is a long line of cars stretched down my street of people waiting to pick up ( Read more... )

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It interesting to me that sometimes I need to move through the sadness which is the least thing I would like to do in the entire world, but it does help.

That's a message for future me.

Move through the sadness.   Feel it, experience it, but then move through it.

I feel a little bit behind schedule at the moment ( Read more... )

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As I wandered around outside photographing yesterday in the rain and fog, I was reminded of what I know to be true: being outside-no matter the temperature, weather, or circumstances-eases my soul.

I have been in a holiday funk all week (the worst since October), and here I was, blaming the overwhelming ( Read more... )

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I am feeling very dissatisfied today.  This week, even?

I can't go so far as to claim this month because the beginning of December was pretty fucking awesome.

I just have to accept that I don't like the holidays and am generally happier when they are over.   And that's okay even though over and over again, people ( Read more... )

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I am very tired but surprisingly content.   We were home by 1ish which is pretty reasonable and the whole day was surprisingly smooth.   It was nice to unwind with friends late into the evening.

Everything worked out (although we forgot the blueberry compote to share but that's okay, it was mostly to share with ( Read more... )