I'm actually having a good day. I am tired and mildly head-achy but it's not enough to bother me. Or, I chose to not let it bother me, one of the two. The sun is out and it's amazingly beautiful outside. The compromises and results of lots of pain, discussion and work betwene me and Nick seem to be working. I'm satisfied with the current state of ( Read more... )

01: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says ( Read more... )

What is happiness, exactly? So many people look for it, lose it, find it, and wish it upon other people, yet - I still don't know what they mean. Honestly, I do not know if I would be able to stand it if I was happy too often. I enjoy feeling good, I like feeling lighthearted and carefree. Yet there are so many rich and wonderful emotions in the ( Read more... )

I absolutely love this song. I wish I knew who wrote it; I only have a copy of The Friars singing a cappella (which they do very well). I can't figure out what it is that moves me so much. It's part lyric and part melody, I think. The song has so much emotion, but it's still soothing ( Read more... )

I'm short on time this morning so thoughts will go list-style ( Read more... )

I love making jewelry. I love the hours spent planning, sawing, filing, sanding, soldering, polishing. I love having something concrete at the end of my dedicated work, something I can hold in my hands and show to the world. I love making things that are beautiful ( Read more... )

Right now I am hyper-sensitive to everything, espically my own emotions. Maybe I really did break the other night. Why else would the world seem so new and irrationally scary, and yet so incredably beautiful at the same time? I'm on the verge of tears for the silliest reasons - or no reason at all, as far as I can see. Yet usually it's with a ( Read more... )

Given the craziness of this weekend, I thought another post was necessary. This afternoon, Nick and I almost broke up for good. We had different wants and need for ourselves, and different expectations of what the other person wanted, and.. you get the picture. I think we have actually reached a compromise at last. He's working on expressing his ( Read more... )

So I think Nick and I finally worked things out, at least as it pertains to his emotions. We went to breakers last night and watched the sun set over the lake. It was... nice. Then cam eback, partd ways for a bit, then watched the first half of a movie and went to bed. He asked me if I would mind if he went for a walk before bed. I said that I did ( Read more... )

*sigh ( Read more... )