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When I write on lj I realize I am mostly needing to vent/ get out anger. In a moment of clarity and feeling at many crossroads I thought I'd write when I wasn't emo-ed out ( Read more... )

I moved to Park Slope/ Gowanus on Halloween (Brooklyn aka BK). I live in a very kink friendly trans house, with all trans women. I was giving away tons of my old clothes that were not my style anymore. They got to have first stab which, felt awesome. Watched my old bras go to my one housemate who has never owned one before. The look on her face. ( Read more... )

I shaved my head last night. I want to see all the changes close up. Winter is coming. Maybe this timing was a bad idea? My face looks a little different. Not much. Just some the femininity sculpted. T changes bone density. My headaches come and go. Sometimes I forget I'm on it. At others it seems to be the only thing I can hold in my brain ( Read more... )

I feel a little unprepared for this. But, oh well. It's time to take it back for myself. Slow down and regain composure. It's not about what happens to us on this journey only. Most of it has to do with how we treat those things that occur. (This means- Felix: STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE TO EVERYONE ( Read more... )

It's cloudy and clear at the same time ( Read more... )

So, here I am again. The cycle. The build up. This is insane ( Read more... )

I have fallen so deeply for Eli. We have been seeing each other a lot lately. Part of it is that drunk love beginning process. Part of it is simply because we enjoy each other's company throughly. There are very few people who I don't grow tired of. Usually, in the beginning I ask of a lot more than what I have been with him. It's nice, to see ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the first time I actually felt really scared about going on T. About how I will change. About being seen. About so much shit I didn't think would touch me. I thought I had enough wisdom to know the difference. Knew myself enough. But really, I get to be human. So fully human. and say. I'm fucking scared out of my mind. Feel the fear ( Read more... )

We discuss what you want on your body.
I take the money up front, in cash.
No traces left behind.
The work leaves you in pain,
Perhaps causing you emotional stirrings.
You get up to leave
Never knowing my name.
Feeling satisfied.
Another happy customer.
Another day as a body modifying prostitute.
~Fe(lix)