Screw ups come too frequently. I hardly ever get to go out and do what I want to do. And this is for several reasons ( Read more... )

I have been so stressed out lately. I know it's because my AP exams are in less than a week and I don't feel prepared. I don't think I should have taken the AP bio exam but I'm signed up anyway. On top of that work has already told me that I can't expect to get any days off during the weeks of exams because we have promotions going on. AHH! I can't ( Read more... )

When I was younger I saw life. I never really lived it. Watching, the right decisions were always easy to see and I felt confident that I would never make the wrong ones. Well now I am living life and the right decision isn't always visible until it's too late. I've done several things that I honestly thought I would never do. Maybe I've grown the ( Read more... )

I breathe in and I’m alone
Alone because you left me
When I inhale I smell your deceit
And when I break I feel my defeat
I line things up perfectly
But still you seem to win
You know you’re destroying me
But I can’t seem to leave you be

Do you ever get this feeling like your parents are spying on you? I don't know, I love my parents and everything but just the way they act sometimes makes me wonder how much they know about my life. Everytime I do something wrong, I think they know before I do. It's frustrating to feel like I'm trying to hide. Not really trying to hide because I've ( Read more... )

And so what if I'm going to hell, I never really thought I'd go anywhere else. It doesn't mean that you need to talk shit about me..No it definitly doesn't. So why do it and piss me off. Do you enjoy it when I'm pissed off?

I think it's hot that my boyfriend fought in Iraq and if you want to go off and say he's a bad person..well fuck you.

For some reason there is always that one day when you actually SEE the sunrise and you could swear that it was the first time it ever happened that way and for some reason it just seemed right. Life isn't going to bad right now. Not that it ever was, it's just the difference in how I deal with the days. Well so what if I'm things I never thought I' ( Read more... )

Have you ever done something so surprisingly stupid that you look back and wonder just why the fuck you screwed up? I have.

I can't erase my steps. I want to deny them but no one believes me. Why...

So I think I'm moving in the next couple of weeks. Just to a different town about ten miles away. I think my parents should just leave everything in boxes and save us the trouble.

Torn by blinding light

behind these eyes is a person
that you never cared to know
A person that you left behind
Someone you'll never know
I could tell you about the seed
that was never to old to sow
A story about a great man
who tore apart what he did sew
You might look at me blankly,
but surely he was not
you could be suprised
If I confided what I'm not
You ( Read more... )