In the beginning of 2005...

--Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes, Russell

--How old were you? 16

--What was your outlook on the world? relatively hated life

--How were you doing at school/your job? just started working at hooters and school was going well

--What did you most look forward to? going up to Michigan for the summer

--Did you make ( Read more... )

so the weekend was pretty good. Last weekend of the year in NC. I leave thursday to fly up to Mich. Couldn't ask for a better weekend. Party on friday night, earned a little money saturday, and then christmas today!! Yay

YOU JUST GOT TO LOVE A SCHOOL THAT CANCELS FOR WINTERY WEATHER, NOT SNOW!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Dear Life,

Why must you test me like you do?

Self,

Why must you always fail?

Here's the Q: "What did the bath tub say to the toilet?"

A: "You might get more ass than me but, I don't take shit from anybody"

Another Q: "What do a fat white chick and and a brick have in common?"

A: "They'll both get laid by a mexican sooner or later"

Right now I am crying. Sometimes I really fucking hate myself. I don't want to be what I am making myself be, why, why am I choosing this? Why the fuck does this happen and what the fuck was I thinking? I can't fucking control myself and I'm about to fall apart into pieces. I'm paying my sin with my own fucking blood. Why? why? Why can't I say what ( Read more... )

The smallest things can really set me off during the day. For some reason I can be fine one minute and feel like an outsider the next. Right now is one of those outsider moments. I seem to get myself in trouble when I'm like this. I don't get along with many people at school. All of my friends that I hang out with are much older than me and I feel ( Read more... )

It's hard for me to think that people can live without really living. But now I am convinced that this is true. I am fourth in my class at my high school. I am friends with the girl who is third and was talking with her about scholarship essays. I had to write one of my essays about the obstacles I have faced and how I overcame them. She has to ( Read more... )

I know everybody so far has said that this is a bad idea but just do it ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder ( Read more... )