At the start of summer I decided to make a big decision, I decided not to come home. I consider myself incredibly lucky. Despite what may seem mundane I have a loving and supporting family. I realize not everyone has this sort of support. My family has always been there for me, whether sitting by my bed at the hospital when I was 10 and was ( Read more... )

Somehow life always seems to throw you curve balls right when you don't need them. In 5 days I leave home for Berkeley. I am excited and I can't wait to go but I also don't want to go and wish I had made 2 years at Moorpark last 3. I know I am ready to take on everything and that I need to move on but it sucks because 5 months ago I met Stephanie ( Read more... )

"There are two sides to every mountain."
I got back from Mt. Whitney tonight. It was a pretty awesome weekend and yet it wasn't nearly as hard as I had imagined. We didn't get to the top yet I know I could have had we not been late in leaving and not had to wait for the unprepared person in our group. Though we didn't make it to the summit we were ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here awhile which is not why I'm writing in here now. I guess a lot has been happening but I feel like its been nothing. People seem to be drifting apart. I mean some people just don't give a shit and that's understandable because if you don't give a shit you wouldn't do anything but then there's others that are good friends ( Read more... )

I like the phrase "It's Complicated" when talking about relationships because its a nice way of saying things are fucked. "It's Complicated." It sucks when a person wants you but you want someone else but thought you wanted the person you know wants you but only realized you still want the other person when you were with the person that wants you. ( Read more... )

The worst kind of lies are the ones you tell yourself and emerse yourself in until the time when you finally realize the truth and are so jarred awake that you disbelieve the truth you have discovered. I always like to think I try to do the right thing but when I realize I haven't been its a rude awakening. Then the decision arises...continue to ( Read more... )

Sometimes things change really unexpectedly. Its like life just hit a veer in the road and the trajectory you had your heart and mind set on suddenly went awry but really maybe you were headed in this direction for a long time without really knowing it ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel these feelings of hopelessness and futility. Its not for me really its just for the world in general. Like no matter what people try to do people will fulfill their own shortsighted desires. I don't exclude myself from this either I am very shortsighted as well and I am wasteful too, but what bothers me is when people refuse to ( Read more... )

Here I am. I haven't been here in awhile but what the hell, right?
So I've been working and junk. Its boring. I know "the ropes". I've learned how big of assholes people can be. A little part of my idealistic vision of most people being generally good dies every once and awhile at work. Every shift there is at least one of those people that haven't ( Read more... )

I had a good day. I went for my first run since I broke my rib 3 weeks ago (Has it really been that long?) Alec and I set our first guitar on fire today and threw it into the sea. It would have been more symbolic if the lighter fluid Alec poured on it hadn't flared up to burn some arm hairs. I keep learning things about people that I would have ( Read more... )