Ok, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but of all the people (ex's, ex's best friend's, crushes, etc)who have recently been sprinkled into my life in the most bizarre ways, it is somehow Adam the I've dreamt about for three nights. Just where I see him, and we hug and it feels so good. I don't know where any of this came from, and I'm ( Read more... )

Oh no, I think I really like him. And it's tough because I can't say a single word about it! I can't do ANYTHING, it's all up to him. So I'll wait?

This could be good. It could be awful. But please this time let it be good!

And in a matter of minutes the whole world changes.

So it's a party. And I'm dreading that he'll bring her. And of course he does. As the night goes on, I start to realize things. Despite the moments when he is sitting across from me and I feel him looking at me, as I pretend to ignore it, I notice one key thing. He loves her. And that's why they are together. I think Brian Krackow's quote ( Read more... )

I have an exam today...my first exam to end my science degree. I have been waiting so long for this, I actually might cry of relief when I'm finished these exams! I really want to do well, and there's definitely some adrenaline going through me. Also I paid my credit card off today in full...that felt gooooooooooood. Back to studying!

thing I like which I am currently in possession of:

-rolo ice cream bar
-an ever developing crush
-ten dollar bill in my pocket
-slight increase in self respect
-bingo dabber on my desk
-lip chap
-clean apartment
-movie date

Well, I finally found out the truth. Not only did Adam hook up with a girl immediately after I asked him to leave me alone and stop hurting me until he figured things out, he's been hooking up with, and (this is the good part) actively seeking to hook up with girls this whole time we've been involved the past few months. This includes the hours ( Read more... )

ok so I've been studying like never before and it's helping me not to fall into a massive depression. I'm also taking a break from facebook, since I tend to check up on Adam while I'm on it. I sense that my walls of denial are starting to crack and I'm preparing for the big conversation. I'm going to wait until after New York because I don't ( Read more... )

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