I realized today that I am quite lonely. Not in the way that I have to do something about it, but just in that matter of fact way. I have no plans for Thanksgiving. I don't think it's a big deal, but I'm going to try to stay busy. The Ian thing was bad. He said things that are not easy to forget. But he's not really the person on my mind

things I simply must remember ( Read more... )

my ability to make the same mistakes over and over again is baffling.

Oh gees, I miss him a lot...

ouch.

Is it wrong that I have this glimmer of excitement? It's a nice feeling when someone looks at you like you're one of a kind. And it's nice to notice that your face hurts cause you're smiling so much...and even if it's nothing...it's nice.

As angry as I am right now that you took the easy way, you took anger and denial, instead of admitting that you didn't adore me, like a person should be, like I adored you ( Read more... )

Dear life,

It's this moment that I'm choosing to run away. I wanted to be strong and take care of myself, but it didn't work, and all I've done is made people hate me.

Sincerely,
Zee

Detatched.
From everything.

It will be very hard to break up with you. Because I love you dearly, and all I want to do is keep loving you. But you haven't really made it up to me like you said you would...and you trying is really just you tolerating me. And your lack of love makes me so unhappy that I can't bear it. Doubts about circumstances and the future are fine, but ( Read more... )