Just a thought.... (unrelated 2 this post)kiki_at_the_wMay 4 2005, 22:45:35 UTC
zentao82: what does it mean when someone is telling you they need some solitude to find themself, but they seem to then spend all that time with another guy?
zentao82: i feel that way too, but I don;t drive her away because i do, this is killing me
zentao82: I am not worrying that she is leaving for him, but can you imagine how much this hurts to be told that and treated that way
You wonder how I feel... this is it. You say you don't know if you're ready for a serious relationship, but then you keep hanging around her knowing that it's not going to make it any better. Why? I hate this, but I LOVE YOU! I can't just give up. Know that I will not end my war for your heart. I've read some very, very hurtful things here and on others' LJs that makes me cry. I feel like you'll never love anyone, especially me, the way you love her and that scares me for myself and .... YOU!
I once had a watch with custom time zones. You could set each one to not only whatever hour you wanted, but also to the precise year, month, day, minute, and second. A three letter abbreviation represented each of two time zones.
I am interested in eastern mysticism, so I named one "ZEN" and the other "TAO", but they both told me the same correct time. They both told me that I was living in the moment.
The beautiful catch was that each time I looked at my watch, not only would I get the time and date, but seeing ZEN or TAO provided the consolations of philosophy. If things went horribly wrong (lets say I was in ZEN), I could press a button to instantly change the philosophy I wore like changing a shirt.
And I could say to myself, "Well, now that was ZEN. This is TAO."
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zentao82: i feel that way too, but I don;t drive her away because i do, this is killing me
zentao82: I am not worrying that she is leaving for him, but can you imagine how much this hurts to be told that and treated that way
You wonder how I feel... this is it. You say you don't know if you're ready for a serious relationship, but then you keep hanging around her knowing that it's not going to make it any better. Why? I hate this, but I LOVE YOU! I can't just give up. Know that I will not end my war for your heart. I've read some very, very hurtful things here and on others' LJs that makes me cry. I feel like you'll never love anyone, especially me, the way you love her and that scares me for myself and .... YOU!
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I once had a watch with custom time zones. You could set each one to not only whatever hour you wanted, but also to the precise year, month, day, minute, and second. A three letter abbreviation represented each of two time zones.
I am interested in eastern mysticism, so I named one "ZEN" and the other "TAO", but they both told me the same correct time. They both told me that I was living in the moment.
The beautiful catch was that each time I looked at my watch, not only would I get the time and date, but seeing ZEN or TAO provided the consolations of philosophy. If things went horribly wrong (lets say I was in ZEN), I could press a button to instantly change the philosophy I wore like changing a shirt.
And I could say to myself, "Well, now that was ZEN. This is TAO."
also, I was born in 1982.
should i add you?
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