so i am updating... *dramatic music*...haha...i am bored. and sick...yeah got a nasty cold. other than that, my dad and my advisor figured out that basically, i am under an ungodly large workload. yeah...its killing me. not really, but that has a large part to do with why i now am fighting this stupid cold. yeah for one that never gets sick, this ( Read more... )

ok...so none of my classes this semester have been good...except psychology and, prepare to be shocked, ENGLISH! how psycho weird is that. yeah i was looking forward to that spanish class...but NOOOOO...that class had NO conversation. and one week of review...ugh...they apparently took two semesters of spanish and squished them into ONE...how ( Read more... )

i havent really updated in awhile simply because i have no idea what to say. i suppose that life is going ok. theres been a lot of bad things happening but i finally realized theres nothing i can really do about them except hope everything will turn out ok. to be honest, life has been a bit depressing lately, but ever since i left highschool, ive ( Read more... )

i don't get angry very often but yes, i am rather peeved at the moment. it seems like just when everything seems to be runnin as smoothly as possible, something inevitibly goes wrong ( Read more... )

inadequate doesnt even begin to describe it...

is it better to have loved and lost...or to never have loved at all? i started thinking about all that yet again in light of a recent death. now usually, i am a loner. i like being by myself. but sometimes i think of how lonely it gets sometimes, not being able to spend time with my closest friends right now. and before i had true friends, i was ( Read more... )

if life is just this. this solitairy minute by minute struggle just to see the next. if it really were, i wouldn't need to write about it because it would just be. and we wouldn't feel like we've failed. that it's so much more than this, only we aren't strong enough or wise enough to find a way to have. life reads just like a novel when that's how ( Read more... )

sigh...family family family...sigh

bah. i finally found a teacher i like and he is moving next semester. wouldnt ya know it. something wonderful has happened and now its gone. sounds just like life. sigh. i know i shouldnt feel this bad about him leaving. but i do. i mean hes the perfect teacher, and while i hate math with a passion, it hasnt seemed nearly as bad. no i do not have a ( Read more... )

i am...im good at some things...like what? sports? active things? artsy things? music?...but what good am i good at? everyone has something they excel it. i dont want to be good at everything. i want to be GREAT. yet, i want no one to notice. does that make me weird? i suppose everyone is weird to someone ( Read more... )