"...truth is what we live for, honor is what we live by, and duty is what we are bound to by life. These three principles are different for every person. They change throughout life because the person changes, but the idea behind them remains the same."- from a speech ( Read more... )

I am once more wandering the world. But I am okay. I know now that I will get through this and must move on. She is not coming back. That is that. So I will suck it up and go on. She will always be a special person to me and I love her, but a new phase in life has begun and I must accept that. It is time for the newborn to start crawling

This is to set anyone straight who is spreading poison about those two. She was too young. That is all. She did not do this to hurt me, I know this. Neither did he. There was nothng malicious in this. They are two beautiful people, and I pray that they find peace and happiness with each other. Anyone trying to hurt either in any way should be ( Read more... )

I feel very cold and alone right now. I have the feeling you get when you wonder if you will ever have happiness and love again, and right now I feel like I will not. I miss her. I miss her being there. And so now I am alone. What do you do from here seems to be the question on my mind most of the time. Where do I go from here? I don't want to ( Read more... )

I am floating, I am lost in the troubled seas of my life. I can't play these games. I love her, but I have lost her. That is all there is to it. I do not know where or what I am going to do, but I must find some way to hold onto my sanity again. I know I will get through having lost her, but it is so hard. For better or worse, I do not know ( Read more... )

We all have decisions to make in life. She made one when she picked me over another some time back. I made mine when I picked her. Now she has to make another, and there is no way I can rush her or try to find out what she will choose any sooner than she is ready. So I am stuck here on hold, which is apt because I am holding on (sometimes ( Read more... )

What is the meaning of love and attachment? What is the difference? I love her, I adore her, and she feels the same way about me, but does that mean we can only feel attachment towards each other? No, it just means we love each other more, and share more attachment to each other than any of the others. I am lost without her because she was what ( Read more... )

She told me that I would never hurt a fly because I am a pacifist. She perhaps never realized that I am such by choice, not nature. I know wrath and anger, I have often been fueled by them. But I have seen the aftermath of such things, and they drive me to seek another way. The pain of others is so easy to rejoice in. It calls to something of ( Read more... )

Tonight I often find myself plugging into the whole chat network. This is strange as I usually don't bother with this during Governor's School, but I feel the need for that whole support network thing that one builds up. It is good to talk to the old friends who may be far away, but they are still there.

so where was I? Oh yeah, someone once told me that they had lived their entire life without regrets. I called them a liar. Everyone has regrets. That is part of life. Sometimes I wonder what I regret more, the things I have done, or the things I didn't do. Right now it is the thing I have done. I have lost what meant most to me in the world ( Read more... )