Comments | zerodefects: A vague outcry

zerodefects

A vague outcry

Jun 19, 2002 14:46

I sat here trying to explain it, but I can't.
So all I can give you is a vague outcry.

I can only put it to you this way...
I think that I am completely fucked.
I hate the fact that I have been trying everything I know, and still I am completely fucked.

I am a FIGHTER!I do not just let things beat me. I will NOT succumb to this ( Read more... )

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anonymous June 19 2002, 17:43:58 UTC

As you well know to live means to choose. You can either make the decision to choose according to who you are and how you feel, or you can just sit back and let the choices make themselves. To actively choose can be a daunting task sometimes, but it is also the only way to be true to oneself and the people that will be effected by the choice. Some choices will hurt, some will help. The only garuntee that you have is that more choices are yet to come, and the only way to prepare for them is to accept the choices that you have made. Nothing lasts forever, including you and the choices that you have, are, and will make.

anonymous June 19 2002, 23:34:00 UTC

I'm not quite sure what's going on in your life right now, but I know that whatever is going on, you will make it through. You wrote it in your entry...

I am a FIGHTER!
I do not just let things beat me. I will NOT succumb to this.
I will hold my head up high, I will walk on with confidence, I will...
I will push with all that I have!

You are a fighter, you do struggle for as long and as hard as it takes you to overcome the obstacles that are placed in front of you. You will pass through this, too. And when you look back, through the sweat and the smoke you will truly realize how much ground you have gained through your efforts.

I hope that at that point you will smile (and maybe laugh a little that you ever doubted your strength).

Until then, just keep trusting in yourself.

ekbuttercup June 20 2002, 00:12:40 UTC

Honey, what exactly are you fighting? Is there something specific and new going on?

Yes, you are a fighter. You always get what you want, through sheer effort. But no one can win all battles alone. You seem to marvel at my newfound strength, but you don't seem to realize that it is yours to borrow whenever you need it. If you ever need anything at all, I am never far away.

Maybe you need to stop thinking so much and try just going with the flow.

Thank you zerodefects June 20 2002, 06:41:07 UTC

My friends, I love each of you. Thank you for your concerns. What I am fighting and what is going on is something that I can not speak of. It is something HOPEFULLY untrue in my own mind, talking about it would reinforce the untrue and give more meaning and explaination to it. I fear accepting this. It is a battle that I have been fighting for some time, and I WILL get throught it. I only hope that this isn't a battle of denial. The longevity of it is the scary part.

Thanks for keeping a "heads up" on me. I just may need it. I just may not. We shall see.