Seriously though, I kinda know where you're coming from, Zersli... There was a guy in school whom I could safely call 'my enemy', and I used to get pretty obsessive thoughts about getting revenge on him for his out-of-the-blue insults. There'll always be these bizarrely cruel people; but in my experience they're a minority, although they are such an expressive minority that it's hard to think of them as such.
With the guy in school who I hated (because of his completely uncalled for insults), I eventually just had to write him off as just some cruel guy, and I tried concentrating on the fact that there were people, many people, who didn't constantly harass me all the time.
Vengeful thoughts can be pretty unhealthy, because they get in the way of normal activity. I’m not trying to downgrade your problems here, because as I understand you go through a lot. I just hope you know that the problem is with that smurf-arms guy, not you :).
Oh, I know it's not actually my problem...but that just doesn't help. There's something alien inside me that forces me to keep this up. I can't find any reason to continue this anymore, except for probably some kind of revenge- or "how-can-people-get-so-god-damn-self-absorbed"-feeling, and I can't see how these emotions would be so strong that it would deliberately ruin the rest of my mental health...
I suppose I have to try and focus more on good things though, as you say.
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I still dunno what's going on with you but whatever it is I hope it fixes itself over Summer. =\
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Guess it's something age related. That's the only thing I know to blame...
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Nothing better than oldschool Simpsons references. q:
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Unless it's me, that is. :P
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Wonder if that'd been better though. :/
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Seriously though, I kinda know where you're coming from, Zersli... There was a guy in school whom I could safely call 'my enemy', and I used to get pretty obsessive thoughts about getting revenge on him for his out-of-the-blue insults. There'll always be these bizarrely cruel people; but in my experience they're a minority, although they are such an expressive minority that it's hard to think of them as such.
With the guy in school who I hated (because of his completely uncalled for insults), I eventually just had to write him off as just some cruel guy, and I tried concentrating on the fact that there were people, many people, who didn't constantly harass me all the time.
Vengeful thoughts can be pretty unhealthy, because they get in the way of normal activity. I’m not trying to downgrade your problems here, because as I understand you go through a lot. I just hope you know that the problem is with that smurf-arms guy, not you :).
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I suppose I have to try and focus more on good things though, as you say.
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