I have a crush on someone. I don't think he even notices me, or if he does he's just not interested. I suppose on some level it's nice to have the thrill of a crush, but a crush can be such a bittersweet thing. I just want to tell him how beautiful he is and how I want to make him smile and waste chilly evenings in the park with him sitting on the swings telling secrets with a bottle of wine. I'm afraid if I told him this he'd think I was crazy because he barely even knows me. So I won't tell him, because the fear of rejection is too strong. I'll just keep hoping that he'll notice me smiling at him some day.
I was just scared to give a name because two people already know this secret and I know they'll read this. But I trust them to keep my secrets, because I've kept secrets for them.
I want to have sex with my cousin. She's quite beautiful and has a fantastic body. I want her and I to screw nastily but quietly at a family reunion when no one is looking.
I'm a very sexual person. I like having sex all the time. Not like every couple of days or even every day. Multiple times daily. I went through a breakup about a month ago and about a month prior to that my now-former-significant-other lost all interest in sex, so I'm in a bit of a dry spell and it's driving me crazy. I'm too vulnerable to get involved with anyone else yet, but I really want to bed someone just to relieve the frustration. However, I am afraid of hurting myself or someone else in the process.
Personally, I find casual sex lost it's appeal a while ago. However, if that's your sort of thing, it's not too difficult to find NSA (No Strings Attached) sex. You just have to do two things; be completely honest and on the level about everything, and trust your intuition if you think the other person can't hack it.
Cause just because they say they're fine with it doesn't mean they are, but you always *know*. The lamer sort of asshole will ignore what they know and claim innocence based on what the other person *says*, but they know.
Also, you know, try to avoid skanks. Just a good idea.
Better idea, long-term: learn to live with the dry spells. Sex is great, but if you decide to let it run your life, it will ride roughtrod over everything you care about. Learn to masturbate better.
I don't know, I'm generally pretty happy with my method. I'm just sayin', if your's isn't working out for you, maybe you should seek out some new methods.
The relationship I'm in now is one of the longest, and probably one of the healthiest, happiest ones I've ever had. And that scares me. (which, on a side note, is really not like me at all) I keep looking for things that are wrong, reasons to run away, and I keep failing to find anything, and I'm worried. Things just *don't* go this well.
And then you hamstring it by worrying constantly about what will go wrong, and overanalysing everything. :P
Why are you looking for things that are wrong? Is there something actually wrong that you keep looking *around*? Or do you just have a fear of success?
Either way, needs to be dealt with sooner or later before your overactive imagination finds a nit to pick.
I don't think anything's actually wrong, it just feels like there is because there's not. I guess it's not so much fear of success, it's just being too damned cynical to belive it's possible, then being all confused and befuddled and worried when it may actually have been found. I don't know, like I said it's really not like me and I'm not entirely sure yet where it's coming from. But I'm working on it.
Cynicism can be dangerous, but it can also be hella smart. Just shows you have enough of a head on your shoulders not to believe in fairy tales (my userinfo be damned!) Even the best love affair will eventually need work, and believing in love with magic and little pink hearts and unicorns usually leads to an unwillingness to work at it when it becomes difficult. So, don't worry about the confusion so much. Just don't forget about it, either. ;)
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I was just scared to give a name because two people already know this secret and I know they'll read this. But I trust them to keep my secrets, because I've kept secrets for them.
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And he'll probably never read this so what the hell.
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I don't think he does read my journal anymore, actually, but maybe he pops in from time to time.
He is pretty adorable. You should do sweet little things like send him anonymous flowers; he'd go nuts for shit like that. ;)
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Cause just because they say they're fine with it doesn't mean they are, but you always *know*. The lamer sort of asshole will ignore what they know and claim innocence based on what the other person *says*, but they know.
Also, you know, try to avoid skanks. Just a good idea.
Better idea, long-term: learn to live with the dry spells. Sex is great, but if you decide to let it run your life, it will ride roughtrod over everything you care about. Learn to masturbate better.
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And that scares me. (which, on a side note, is really not like me at all)
I keep looking for things that are wrong, reasons to run away, and I keep failing to find anything, and I'm worried. Things just *don't* go this well.
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And then you hamstring it by worrying constantly about what will go wrong, and overanalysing everything. :P
Why are you looking for things that are wrong? Is there something actually wrong that you keep looking *around*? Or do you just have a fear of success?
Either way, needs to be dealt with sooner or later before your overactive imagination finds a nit to pick.
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I don't know, like I said it's really not like me and I'm not entirely sure yet where it's coming from. But I'm working on it.
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and... and your doody is a grayish off white.
like a goose.
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