it's been a slow week and i'm totally done. i mean absolutely emotionally drained and it really sucks. one constant reminder after another i dont know how to deal with anything anymore.......i tell myself it was no big deal...i'll get over it just like i get over everything else right? i'm good at that right? but i know i'm just bullshitting myself ( Read more... )

i hope everyone had a good halloween i know i had a half-way decent one. meh maybe next year will be better. yeah the ghost told me i should update and i usually listen to spirits. even ones who have figures out the internet so here i am updating!!! IMPOSSIBLE???? i think not *shocked face* i am fully capable of actually updating this stupid ( Read more... )

i haven't written in a while and now i kinda feel bad...don't know why but i do. school is almost out and i am so glad cuz believe it or not i'm tired of being grounded...its been what a month? two? i dunno anymore. nexy monday is the 14 and it will be kevin and I's 5 month ann. whoah, its seems longet than that to me for some reason. uhhhh i have ( Read more... )

I now have a different website for all those who give a friggen damn. all of you go to www.xanga.com and type in zinglady15 as usual in the search for users. u will find my site there which is ten times betta than this one luv ya all byeeeeeee

nope still can't sleep.but i've decided i'm horny still i wanted to let everyone know :)

God damn it's 12:06 and I can't sleep, go figure. I had that dream again. The one where I'm running from some dark fear that I can't see but I can't seem to run fast enough. Then it almost has me and that's when I wake up. I always wake up in a cold sweat shaking, oh shit does it scare me. MY mom is no comfort cuz when i told her about it she just ( Read more... )

When you're little everyone tells you that someday you'll fall in love and marry mr./mrs. right. What they never tell is how old you will be when that happens. One: because they don't know and two: because they assume that you will be around 25 or 30 when it happens. Well why does everyone think you have to be older? Why isn't it possible for it to ( Read more... )

For the love of god why is it so damn hard to be one person's friend. It's just one person that's it. And the worst part is I keep coming back. I'm not willing to give up on her and I won't. It just seems like no matter how hard I try there's no pleasing her as a friend. But god damnit does it take friggen patience. Sometimes I just wanna bash my ( Read more... )

First let me get the random stuff down and out of my head. Chels this is mostly from you though. Bryan, is chels good in bed? She put me up to it I must say. But seriously, I would like to know why you guys r mad at kevin? I talked to Kevin and told him that Bryan said he was flirting with other girls. (PLEASE no one kill me for telling him but it' ( Read more... )