it's a statement not a question, "you hate me dont you". well today started off pretty decent and then it got incredibly better when i got up here to update my journal and i found a comment from my SAMMY!!!! he got the package i sent him!!!! i'm so excited, i didnt think it made it but it did and now he has some things to entertain himself with. i ( Read more... )

I've been feeling very frustrated lately. no matter how much of an effort i put into some things, i just cant seem to make them work right. well everything but radio of course. i want to make Pedropalooza huge, do everything imaginable to make it wonderful but it's feeling more like when you're walking up a muddy hill. for every step you take ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in quite a while, though i should have a long time ago. a lot has happened since my last post, for starters kevin and i aren't together. HAHA who saw that coming?! no seriously i'd like to know LOL whatev. i'm outta highschool. i used my senior year to go to saddleback and get my diploma early ( Read more... )

have your ever had a day where you wish you could just be perfect? where you wish you could shift and change to fit everyone's needs from you? i hate drifting in and out of my head and wishing i could just stop worrying. stop feeling like a bitch when i say the wrong thing. or feel bad when i say something i really mean. i may act tough when i need ( Read more... )

yes it is thanksgiving and the only things i am thankful for are my friends and my family....that's it. i dont really have my health right now and i'm already thankful for life and my home and being were i am so it kinda limits me to very litte. does anyone remember looking forward to thanksgiving when they were kids? i dont remember. all i ( Read more... )

for one i'm just astounded that anyone even reads my journal anymore and how some people feel. i feel bad for you krow and how u say you wish you could be filled in more often. i really think you should act more open then. dont be so mysterious. everyone likes who you are and because you try to hide it so much not many people are willing to bother ( Read more... )

i am in such pain. i've been on painkillers pretty much all weekedn and i'm surprised i'm even still alive. mary was acting really weird today. she was all out of it and almost seemed upset a little bit about something. i pretty much know why and i wish i could help her but i also think its something she needs to deal with on her own. i'm just here ( Read more... )

i'm not doing so well people. i've been on the edge for the past few days and i'm not getting any better. oh god i'm so worried i think i'm going to cry. i cant really explain it and i dont really want to but what i do know and can tell is that i can handle it. i can take of myself and this time i will be ok. right....so i had a very long and fun ( Read more... )

meh i'm tired and my eyes hurt but i'm not going to sleep. i'm going to stay up and watch Stand By Me, The Lost Boys, Edward Scissorhands, and TNBC. if anyone doesnt know what the last one is dont worry about it. its like i'm in the mood to cry. i feel like that a lot now. i dont know what's wrong with me but i'm worried all the time. i've got so ( Read more... )

iono the ghost being amir??? maybe...but hey i had fun the other day even though the football game was boring. the half time show was funny though and you guys crack me up....hey why were you so down krow? you barely said a word and you kept walking off by yourself and then coming back. i felt bad and i wanted to say something but i dont know you ( Read more... )