been busy lately...work and well before school also.

now work will be over, school doesnt resume for about a month

leaves me with time....new year OLD me. time to get back to the freak i am... no more fats, no sweets, no carbs, well basically nothing that isnt liquid or a vegetable and i am going back to the gym and long bike rides. i will feel ( Read more... )

as far as good goes,
bad is close. 
put my hands in the flame, 
hoping that will burn away the shame


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it has been ages since the last time i posted in this journal, but for the sake of keeping it semi current i will post here ( Read more... )

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair

And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I ( Read more... )

soo it's been a while....

Hold your breath and count to ten, fall apart and start again.

there is no escaping gravity.I fall down, hit the ground, make a heavy sound 

 2008...so far is drastically different than 2007 was in the begginning...
happy to report that no one in my family has died yet.

i always thought my senior year would be the greatest year ever. so far it has proven to be one of the worst. as though the pressures of applying for colleges, trying to bring up my grades, and keep my family balanced ( Read more... )

"so far two-thousand seven has been a series of firsts.
i wont go into details but it's some crazy shit...i can't wait to see what else the new year has in store for me.."

if only i had known how insane the rest of my year was going to be, i would have never said "i cant wait to see what else is in store for me.."
...2007...
SUCKED

“I’m pretty like DRUGS”

"There is an anger that comes off this girl,
That she can't find an origin,
The things I plant won't grow,
Yet the wild weeds flower in wind and snow.

Nothing to be nothing to prove,
Nowhere to go nothing to lose.

When will my season come,
Was I born of infertile soil,
Is my seed without song,
Can I not see the woods for these ( Read more... )

 what ironic times we live in.

the people you would like to perhaps some day trust piss you off, your enemies from a few months ago become your go-to girls, that bitch across the street becomes your number one hoochie , and all the work you do in class seems pointless when your grades still havent improved from last year, that boy you always saved ( Read more... )

sure, apologize to me ... "but i am More than just a little bit curious how you plan to go about making your amends to the DEAD"

almost all of last week i had been feeling extremely iratable. i am not sure if it was that i had been sleeping too much, or who knows....

i kept having these flash backs of the a few crazy things...
things i hadnt though ( Read more... )