Tonight my pizza delivery guy was mugged on the way to my house. Apparently the robber took all his cash as well as my pizza ( Read more... )

When I got saved nine years ago, I experienced a very emotional awakening. An intense awareness of all my sins, all my flaws, all my weaknesses flooded to my consciousness as I stood face-to-face with the Eternal. At that moment, I felt like the lowest scum of the earth. I felt like everything I had ever done or thought had been wrong, had been ( Read more... )

I've been telling myself I wouldn't do it. That I wouldn't get a crush or any of that b.s. But, load me up with some alcohol and I'll spend the next week obsessing about some guy who only gave me an innocent hug and only because I was shit-faced and only because I told him he was my soul-mate in a fit of musical and girl to guy orgasm-ratio ( Read more... )

You learn a lot about yourself when you spend time with other people. Tonight I learned quite a few. Good things first: I don't talk about myself a whole lot... even when I have plenty of reason to do so. I think I listen pretty well... and am truly interested ( Read more... )

Today, for some reason, I'm feeling like a disappointment. It could very well be a combination of 1. My great idea last night at work ended up not playing out the way I had hoped, 2. Something I signed off on at work ended up being the opposite of what I should have done, 3. I have had little to no sleep, and 4. I didn't contribute a whole lot at ( Read more... )

I have officially reached one of those points in life where everything is great. Where everyday I wake up happy, I love everything I do all day, and I go to bed happy. I pick and choose whatever I want to do. I smile, I laugh, I joke. I metaphorically skip through a field of waist-high wildflowers while my hair falls out of its braids to ( Read more... )

I just watched P.S. I Love You... I bawled my eyes out.

Like, I didn't just cry... I didn't just have a few tears squeeze their way out. No, I was heaving crying.

In my mind, the letters were coming to me. Because long before the movie, I heard the same things echo in my mind.

No, he didn't die. But, he might as well have.

I gotta admit that I'm disillusioned. I had this fantasy of what love would be and thought I had found it. I found the one guy who I could be myself around. The guy who took care of me in a way that mimicked only my dad. The guy who shared the most perfect "how we met" story with me. He made me happy and I loved making him happy in return. ( Read more... )

Saturday night, I laid down in my bed and thought to myself how nice it was to have someone laying next to me again. When I closed my eyes I thought about how it used to feel to have another human being pledging to occupy the extra pillows on my bed forever. How comforting it was to think that I would never have to sleep alone again ( Read more... )

i guess it's time for a post... things they are a'changin ( Read more... )